Just a waitress (a jace Norman fanfic)

Chapter 43- peace

Christine's pov
My eyes slowly opened. Everything was blurry. I stood up. I was home. In Maine. I walked downstairs to the smell of pancakes and bacon. "Good morning sweetie! You hungry?" "Mom?" My mom looked up at me. I ran over and hugged her. "What is it honey?" How is this possible? Was it all a dream? It can't be! It was too real! I started t panic. "Sit down. You look pale." My mom came over and felt my forehead. I sat down at the table. My dad came downstairs. "Morning! Morning kiddo!" My dad kissed my head. Dad? I jumped up and hugged him. Then he sat down. Then I heard a knock on the door. "I'll get it!" My mom said and left and opened the door. I heard her in the other room. "Hi Lucy!" Lucy? "Yes she's in here." It can't be THE Lucy. The kitchen door opened and in walked my mom and my best friend. I jumped up and ran and hugged Lucy. "Lucy!" I yelled with joy. "Nice to see you too bestie!" She whispered. I let go and looked around at everyone in the room. My parents, my best friend, me. "Am I dead?" I asked nervously. "You should sit down."my mom said. I did and everyone sat around me. "Honey bee you have no idea how long we have waited to talk to you. You're all grown up!" My dad said tearing. "And as much as we want you to stay with us, it's not your time." Mom said. Then I remembered everything. "Mom I got your letter. I know that you loved me all the time." She smiled. "I know. We've been watching you." "Then you must be pretty disappointed in me." I looked down. "Disappointed? Honey I've never been more proud. I wanted you to see the world and be happy. I wanted you to fall in love. Take fate into your own hands. And I know you had some bumpy times but in the end you get through it. Your stronger than I ever was. There is so much for me to be proud of!" She smiled at me. "I'm sorry I didn't want to go the dance recital. If I hadn't gotten scared we wouldn't have gone home and you wouldn't have saved me over you. And dad I'm sorry that I wanted to leave you. I should have known that I was all you had left and I was selfish. And Lucy. I wasn't there for you. I let you be alone when you needed me most. I was a terrible friend. I'm so sorry." They all looked at me. As I looked at them I realized that I was responsible for everyone's death. It was all my fault. "Sweetie you can't blame yourself for me. You were five! You could never have guessed what would happen. And like I said. I will always save you over me. And I'm sorry too. I should have told you about Cornelia. If you had known about her you never would have gone with her. And you never would have had to go through that." My dad started to speak. "And I can't blame you for wanting to follow your dreams. I was just afraid of losing you. But obviously you can handle yourself. And I should be the one apologizing. After your mother I wasn't a very good dad. I was never around to support you and cherish you. I never moved on and then I tried to keep you from living your life. I love you and I'm sorry for everything." Finally Lucy said something. "And you can't blame yourself for being busy. I should have been more understanding and known that you were in a hard position too. I shouldn't have killed myself. I wasn't there when you needed me either. It was all about my problems an I didn't even think that stuff was happening to you too. I'm sorry." I hugged her. "The point is we all make mistakes. We all screw up and hate ourselves for it. But you have to move on someday. You have to let go and know that what's in the past is in the past. You don't belong here. Not yet. You have a long life to live." My mom said. I was crying now. "But I want to stay here with you!" I said. "I know you miss us. And we miss you too. But it's not your time. You have that jace guy you seem to like so much." Dad said. "Dad!" I said. A little embarrassed he knew about jace. "You have a lot to live for Christine! You can't stay here."Lucy said. "Go live your life! Laugh, love, screw up, fall down, but always get back up. That's what I want for you. And when you are ready, we'll be here. Waiting for you." Mom said. I knew she was right. But I didn't want to leave them. "Just promise you'll look in on me once in a while?" I asked. "We promise. All of us want to look out for you. And the minuet you get your butt back up here we can update your style!" I laughed with Lucy. We all stood up and had a group hug. "I'll never forget you guys. I love you." I said. "We love you too." My mom said. Them I let go and looked at everyone one last time and smiled. They meant what they said. They will be waiting for me. I know that. "I guess I'll see you soon!" I said. "Not too soon!" My dad said. I waved and they waved back. Then everything started to fade. I opened my eyes. I was in the hospital. I looked at Ella, Sean, Cooper, mrs. Norman, Riele, and jace. Then, I smiled.