After Taste⚣Book 2✔️

Eighteen (2y 3m)

Photo-LILO HAD A WATERFIGHT ON STAGE,THEY GOT EACHOTHER WET

So chaired three is now private,if you've read it it isn't even that bad compared to others I've written,i aligned when I got a message saying so

*nonedited

Enjoy :) (November 2017)

"Dada,where papa?"Fletcher asked,toddling into the livingroom where Liam was sat blankly watching what was on the TV.He wasn't paying attention to watt was on TV.his mind was too occupied with other things for him to be watching Television and it was making him a little stressed out.It had been 2 weeks since Louis was rushed into hospital and miscarried with him and Liams baby,and since those two weeks Louis has been locking himself away again and blaming it all on his self,even with everyone (Including Karen who was a nurse and knew about medical) telling him that anyone could miscarry.

Liam had spent restless nights searching facts about parents who went through with a miscarriage,and nearly all of them had noted down that the mother was the most effected afterward the incident.He had read a story about a girl shutting herself away for a couple of days to figure herself out and then come back out as good as new,as if the past actions never happened.Another was about a couple that had both fallen into a rough patch after they kept having miscarriage after miscarriage which resulted in the couple breaking up from the constant arguing.The last one was an article about a couple who had a miscarriage but went on to having 2 children afterwards with no complications which was a sign that everything could go to plan after.

He was frightened about Louis' health,he knew about his last,hell,he was the boys past and now after nearly 2 years of being clean from depression and self-harming,this could be something that could push Louis' back to the starting point again.Louis was back to the point where he didn't want to be touched,and for Liam to see his fiancé shuffle away from his touch and wimped broke his heart.All he wanted to do was cradle Louis to his chest and whisper sweet things into his ear to make him feel better,he wanted to pepper Louis' small delicate face with kisses until he heard his giggle.

"Oh hey bub,"Liam smiled softly picking Fletcher up from under his arm pits and sat him on his lap,Wilson in his hands and his chocolate brown fridge swept to the side like the usual way Louis wore it.The more that Fletcher grew up the more that he was starting to look more and more he was looking like Louis.He was wearing a red polo shirt and a pair of black jeans,small red and white trainers on his small feet and one of Louis' old bracelets on his small wrist,the bracelet being able to slip off his wrist no problem.

" 'ere papa?"He asked again,a giddy smile on his face as he jumped up and down on Liams lap,Wilson now lying in the space between Liams stomach and Fletcher where he is placed on his daddy's lap.Liam sighed softly as he ran his fingers through Fletchers hair making the smaller boy giggle innocently.

"Here's upstairs bubba,isn't feeling too good,"Liam answered the innocent question as he bounced Fletcher on his lap,his hand son the toddlers hips so that he didn't fall off his knee as he bounced."Hey,tell you what,want to go and cuddle with Papa upstairs?Make him feel better?"He asked with a small smile as Fletcher nodded eagerly with a cute smile on his face followed by a 'Yeah!' As Liam got up holding Fletcher,bending down to pick up Wilson aswell handing it to Fletcher who took him.He started to carry him up the stairs on his hip,blowing raspberries into his neck as he did so just to see Fletcher smile.

Opening the door to the bedroom,Liam sighed as he saw the sight of Louis lying in bed,the covers a mess around his small body as he lay with his face towards the bathroom.Liam walked in,closing the bedroom door in the process and walked in with Fletcher,sitting at the deg of the bed as he stroked Louis' baby smooth cheek.He looked so sad,anyone would be sad if they just found out they just lost their baby.but looking at Louis in this state just reminded Liam of the times that Louis was at his lowest.And he hated those memories.Louis didn't move away from the soft touches,just stayed silent and kept his eyes closed."Papa?"Fletcher questioned reacting to his papas distress and climbing off of Liams lap and in the space beside his papa so that he was close to his face.

"Hi Fletch,"Louis whispered softly,his eyes still closed as Fletcher moved to snuggle into his papa chest,small arms wrapping around his neck as Fletcher placed a kiss on Louis' jaw.Louis let out a sort of whimper sound as he moved to wrap his arms around his baby,pressing a soft kiss to His hair as he breathed in his scent.He had Fletcher,his baby boy,he had Liam.his amazingly perfect Fiancé but he was still missing that small piece of him,he wanted another.He let a few tears slip from his closed eye lids as he thought about the baby he could've had in his Arms in a further 6 months but isn't.All his own fault he kept telling himself.

"Oh Lou,"Liam sighed as he lay down behind Louis and took the smaller boy in his Aroms as the three kind of laid in a small spooning session,Liam being the biggest,then Louis and then of course Fletcher (Wilson too as the smallest spoon).He started to press Kisses to Louis' hair as he cried a little.

"It's all my fault,isn't it?"He wasn't asking it as a question because deep down he had himself believe it was his fault,that it was something that he did in a past life that made this happen,or that it was those men coming back to finish the job by destroying his future plans.Liam shook his head,kissing behind Louis' ear as he held onto the two close knowing rightly that Fletcher would be asleep soon for his nap.

"No no,it's no ones fault Louis.You have to stop blaming it on yourself Love,"Liam said,"We'll have another one,don't worry,now is just not the time,"He told the smaller boy.Louis nodded sadly as his tears dried up.He missed being held,he knew it was his own sing pushing Liam away at night but he just needed space and time to think alone.He was so Tempted to do things to his body,he had the urge to cut or burn his body just to feel so emerging other than sadness,but he had to he strong,even if it was failing at times.

"Liam?Will you always love me?"Louis asked unsure if he wanted to know the answer or not.He still had major trust issues,and live was one of the major ones.He was always scared that Liam would see Louis as he used to and decide to leave,pretend that the past years never happened and that the live was nothing but a play.

"Always,"Liam smiled kissing Louis' cheek,"You,Fletcher and whoever else appears in our life,"

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I'm sorry,this chapter sucked,ugh

I'm so so so so sorry for the last chapter,I didn't mean for it

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Peace ✌️

~Marie

[SN:Right,okay,so I'm thinking of a third book?Yeah or neah?]