Painkiller (BoyxBoy) | ✔️

24. Space

Shane

"I'm gay," Shane stated out loud.

"What?" asked Dave.

"Oh my god really?" This was Tris.

"Excuse me?" Finally, it seemed Meghan had processed what Shane had just said.

The car came to an abrupt stop and the two in front turned to stare at Shane with curious eyes. Their friend had to be joking, right? It was one thing for Ethan to come out as gay, and they all had no problem with that of course. But for Shane to also say that he was gay?

That was a curveball thrown at the friend group. It wasn't that they didn't want to accept him, it was just difficult to believe. He had a girlfriend for crying out loud. Ethan had never had a girlfriend, so they thought it was possible that he could be gay. That was the difference.

Shane closed his eyes and threw his head back, sighing out loud as a wave of relief overtook him, but also the sting of guilt stabbed him in his chest over and over as the seconds passed.

"What's going on?" Meghan finally whispered, her frustration laced in her voice and evident in her face. She had long since seen the end of her relationship with Shane coming but not once had she ever thought that he could be attracted to boys.

"I am gay," Shane stated simply without looking at her. "That's what I said."

"Do you hear yourself? What the fuck do you mean you're gay?" She questioned angrily with a raised voice.

"I like boys," he said, shrugging. He was back to not caring.

"This is not funny Shane. Are you fucking kidding me? In case you're forgetting, I'm your girlfriend."

"That's what I've been trying for fucking weeks to tell you!" He screamed at her. Then he took in a deep breath and looked out the window. "I'm fucking gay, Meghan."

"But you can't be. This... That's impossible. We've had sex. Are you telling me that all those times you were with me, you knew you were gay? I mean? How could... What the hell Shane?"

Shane sighed and closed his eyes. He would've turned to his friends for help but he knew they were also just as shocked and confused as Meghan was. He had been waiting for a very long time to get this off his chest and now that he had done it, he didn't feel as relieved as he thought he would.

"You and I both know our relationship was on rocks for months. It was inevitable," he stated after a while. "Besides, I like someone else." He whispered the last part, finally admitting that there was someone else in the picture. Meghan and Tris's eyes widened at the new information, and Dave just narrowed his eyes at his friend, understanding that Shane had been cheating on Meghan.

"You can't be gay Shane. It wasn't supposed to be this way. We were supposed to be six best friends till we grew old. Dave and Tris, Ethan and Liz and You and Me, Shane! We are supposed to love each other. How could you do this to me?"

"No! You don't get to decide how we all live our lives, Meghan!" He exclaimed in response. "You've got this fucked up fantasy in your mind that we're all going to be together forever but guess what, we're fucking human and life happens. Not everything is going to go your way," he stated. "Also, sexuality is fluid Meghan and honestly, I've always thought I was bisexual until fairly recently," he shrugged.

"You're an asshole, Shane. I fucking hate you!" Meghan shouted as tears run down her cheeks and got out of the car.

It was quiet for a while, Tris and Dave were both shocked at the new information they had just received and could only stare at their friend in shock until Tris whispered, "How could you?" She shook her head as she also realized that Shane had indeed cheated on Meghan. She couldn't believe that someone as sweet and kind as Shane could do such a thing. She quickly got out of the car and ran after Meghan to comfort her.