Grotesque || Bucky Barnes x Reader

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James and I are in the quinjet on our way to the HYDRA base. I could sense that he was uncomfortable , and as much as he tried to hide it, he couldn't, "James," I say, walking over to sit next to him as he looks at me "what" he retorts about how close I am as I place my hand on his trying to be nice "everything will be ok" I whisper as his hand tenses up, I've never been this close to him, I have never been able to smell his cologne this close up nor did I want to.

"How would you know," James says, pissed off, which is understandable, and I smile at him gently "you were just given these abilities after a normal life or whatever," he said coldly, and I nod smiling. "Why are you smiling," he says, giving me a sour look squinting his eyes at me as I shake my head "you are trying your hardest to listen to Steve, aren't you," He says as I nod and look down, remembering my hand was on his, and I quickly remove it.

Moments pass, and I can feel his gaze on me as I stare out the window at the front "what are you look at, bucky" I say, turning around accidentally calling him Bucky. "James- I mean James, that's what steve calls you, not me" I clear my throat to ease the awkwardness, but all he does is laugh at me. "You know everyone calls me bucky except for you," He says with his gaze still on me, and I eye him up and down "why is that" he continues as I shrug and shake my head. "I'm not a friend; I'm just an acquaintance" I shrug as he nods, this is the first time in years that me and bu- James have ever had a civilised conversation, and I don't know why but it felt nice.

We land at the HYDRA base, and I could tell how angry James had become because his voice had changed; there was no emotion to it, no voice break, no cocky tone in it, his voice was stern, deep, commanding. It was almost like he had turned into a conscious version of the Winter Soldier. I grab his arm "listen, I'm going to go get the USB will you be alright" I ask him as he looks at me and then his arm and nods as I slowly remove my arm and walk around.

"this place" I pause walking around "it seems so familiar to me" I say staring at a room with a chair, I had remembered everything so why would I forget it all now. Barnes walks up behind me and points at the chair "that's the chair that makes me want to die" he says very sternly yet I could imagine how broken he was inside. "James" I pause going inside the room as everything hits me the machines, the men, the serum, the pain it was all in this room but it wasnt just me that they had done this to, "this is where it started wasn't it" I whisper turning around to look at him as a massive lump forms in his throat and he nods.

"Come on," he says moving past me walking towards the computer room, I could tell he was tense because not only was there a vein popping out the side of his neck but he was using his vibranium arm more often than usual. I paid attention to him quite often, James is right-handed and he never and I mean never uses his left arm first he only does that when he is being cautious or if he was worried.

A loud bang comes from the room James and I was just in as I run off I feel his metal arm grab me "don't go back in there" He hesitantly says "as much as I'd love for your arm to get blown up I wouldn't love having to share a metal arm" He says seriously and I glare at him and shake out of his grip which was hard to do, I tried so hard to listen to him and that was so hard. After a while, I run to the room "Y/N!" he yells chasing after me as I see the cause of my demise or well what I think is about to be my demise.

"well well well if it isn't test subject-" "that's not my name," I say cutting him off, the tall pale figure walks up to me and pretends to slap me as I flinch. I could feel Bucky's presence behind the glass seeing this all was probably so confusing for him, "you should be grateful you little bitch I practically made you into who you are now" He spits at me "Y-Yes sir" I stutter scared of what James would think "your lucky that your little friend isn't here to see this because he doesn't know your secret does he" the man says, well he would know now thanks.