Ineffable Euphoria

Kabanata 7

Kabanata 7...
Distraction

"Marjorie," my gaze drifted to a familiar face before me. "Coach wants to talk to you,"

"Now?"

"Yup. The squad has been notified. Couch made it specific to get you there, so," she shrugs.

Tumango ako. "I'll tag by. I just have to finish this,"

"But the meeting's about to start,"

"Don't you hear me? I said I'll go after I finish this," pinigilan kong umirap at muling hinarap ang ginagawa.

Sandali ko pa silang narinig na nagbulungan bago tuluyang umalis kaya muli akong naiwan sa isang kiosks, nag-iisa, at binabalot ng katahimikan. Halos lahat ng dumaraan ay napapalingon sa'kin kaya mas lalo akong nairita.

Daddy made it clear that he'll fix Mommy's issue and he really did as it subsided. Though of course, it's not as if they could just forget it in a snap.

Isinilid ko ang mga papel sa bag ko, bago nagsimulang maglakad patungong gym.

Hindi nakatakas sa'kin ang mga matang mapagmasid sa bawat kilos ko. Tuwing lilingon naman ako'y mabilis silang mag iiwas ng tingin at magmamadaling umalis na tila ba aksidente lang nila akong pinagmasdan at bulungan.

Coach gaze shot through me once I enter the gym premises. One looked at me, followed by another, then I just realized I caught everyone's attention.

I nod and pulled a seat in front.

"Is this about our incoming cheer for the university?"

He pursed his lips and nod. "By this month, magpra-practice na tayo ng routines,"

Tumayo ako, hindi inintindi ang sinabi nito.

"I'm quitting, coach."

"What? You can't be quitting Marjorie," Mel, one of our bases stood up.

"You're one of our flyers, you can't just quit!" Another one stood up.

Namalayan ko na lang, napuno na ng sabay-sabay na usapan ang buong gym. Natigil lang ang lahat ng pumito si coach.

"They're right, Marjorie. You can't just quit. You're one of our centers, and a flyer, it'll be hard for us to find another substitute," aniya.

Even if I want to continue cheer leading, my whole being can no longer take my piling up stress and responsibilities. I had to leave such things behind.

I shook my head and stare at coach, dead eye. "As far as I can remember, I can quit whenever I want. Besides, there are people auditioning every year. I'm sure you can fill the spot I left,"

Another bunch of murmurs filled our atmosphere.

One more argument with coach and I leave with head up high, planning to sleep my ass off until I can function again.

Bumuntong hininga ako at hinila ang bean bag sa teresa ng aking kwarto para pagmasdan ang kung ano mang nangyayari sa ibaba ng bahay. Katatapos ko lang tawagan si Mommy. Akala ko'y mapapanatag ako na marinig ang boses n'ya mula ng pag-aaway nila ni Daddy, pero tanging sigaw lang n'ya ang nakuha ko.

Ipinadala nga s'ya ni Daddy sa states.

Sinubukan kong kumbinsihin si Daddy na huwag na, pero masyadong malaki ang galit n'ya.

Maski ako naman...

I still didn't get how Mommy can do that to us. To me...

I'm her daughter. Why don't I feel like it?