Ineffable Euphoria

Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9...
Kalmado

"Will one dress be enough for that day, Enrico?"

My gaze was drawn to Mommy's position beside Daddy when she asked a casual question about the charity gala on Wednesday. This is probably just the first of many events we'll attend this month. As much as I'd like to be excited since this is the first time in a long time that I'll be attending such large gathering, but I'm not even interested in going.

"Yes," simpleng ani Daddy.

Mommy gave daddy a look before nodding to the person assisting us.

"How much are you donating?" Mommy fired.

"Five Hundred,"

I pursed my lips and decided to walk up to them and show the dress I had chosen.

"I'll get this,"

Dumantay sa'kin ang paningin ni Daddy habang nanatili ang matalim na tingin ni Mommy dito.

"That's all?"

"Yup,"

He nodded and went to Mommy. "Hurry up and choose something to wear. We're attending church,"

I'm probably depressed — that's all I can come up with.

Hindi na ako nagtataka kung totoo nga ang hula ko. Sa bawat araw na lumilipas ay nawawalan na ako ng gana gumawa ng kahit ano. Ni ang mga dati kong hobbies na nage-enjoy akong gawin, hindi ko man lang mabisita't, muling masubukan. Hindi ko na rin maalala kung kailan ako huling sumaya...

Ang tanging pumupuno sa utak ko ay ang mga pagdurusa ko sa nakalipas na mga buwan.

I feel like time's moving so fast, but at the same time, I feel like running out of it.

It's been three days since Miranda was sent to the orphanage, and until now, I can't think of anything that can make me function... Make me feel alive again.

Rinig ko ang ilang pag click ng camera kasabay ng homily ng Pari.

Tumungo ako at mas inintindi ang sinasabi nito.

Ever since then, we've gone to church for mass on a regular basis, but that's not enough for me to claim that I'm religious. Hell, I don't even know how to talk with God... If I did, would he answer my prayers? Will this never-ending cycle of pain come to an end? I then wonder, if I'm a child of his because honestly, I don't feel like it.

"I haven't seen you in campus Ate Marj," Carson's sister stated.

I smiled. "For the time being, Kate, I'm homeschooling."

"That's probably boring," she raised a brow and flashed a smile comparable to his brother.

"Kate," speaking of the devil.

Tinanguan ko si Carson. Sa likod nito ay si Kuya Ross na agad ang malaking ngisi.

"Ano, Kate? Nagtanong ka na ba ng fashion tips?"

Natatarantang tiningnan ako ni Kate at inis na hinarap ang kapatid.

"Ano ba, kuya!"

Humalakhak si Kuya Ross at mas lumapit sa'min.

"Mag e-equestrian kami, sama ka!"

"Me?"

"Of course, you! May iba pa ba akong kausap?" Tawa n'ya. "Ano? I'll tell Mayor, or Tita, name it. Papayagan ka n'yan, basta ako ang magsasabi,"

"Sure ka?" Segunda ni Carson.

Nagsikuhan na ang dalawang magkapatid.

"When ba, kuya? Ako na magpapa-alam kay Daddy. I'm sure he'll let me na naman,"