Mercury(And The Chaos In Their Life) Part 3

Chapter 10, Rant

I wake up and I'm not there still. Although I didn't feel like getting up anymore, I started to think about yesterday.

And I feel..sad?

I continued to lay on the bed and stare at the ceiling, I stare off for a while. I was probably tired or something was just stopping me.

As I finish getting ready for the day, I went into the living room. No one else was here, and I also felt very tired as if I could fall asleep again. It was 8:20AM in the morning, and I didn't know what else to do.

As I try to keep my eyes open, I ended up falling asleep. As if I couldn't control it anymore. A couple of minutes pass by, I wake up,

in the white room again...

I felt rage, and agony building up on me, every sound in this place builds up my anger - I don't wanna be here anymore. I got up slowly and sat on my knees.

"CROSS! GET YOUR FUCKING ASS RIGHT OUT HERE!! RIGHT NOW! I KNOW WHAT YOUR GONNA DO TO ME! SINCE YOU ALWAYS WASTE YOUR GOD DAMN TIME RUINING ME. YOU HAVEN'T REALIZED WHAT YOU'VE FUCKING DONE, YOU MADE MULTIPLE MISTAKES WHICH YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING REALIZE. YOU MADE ME INTO SOMEONE I DIDN'T WANT TO BECOME, YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT, YOU DESTROYED ME. YOU WASTE YOUR TIME AROUND ME, TRYING TO FUCKING HURT ME. WHY THE HELL CAN'T YOU BECOME A BETTER PERSON??!!!

YOU CAN'T BECAUSE YOUR TOO FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD TO FUCKING REALIZE IT!! YOU'RE THE REAL MONSTER HERE!!!! I'M NOT. YOU.AREN'T.NORMAL!!!!!!" I tried to catch my breath as I start sobbing with my head down, my thoughts clutter everywhere.

The sounds in the Reality get louder and louder as it scratches at my brain..

I hear nearby footsteps, I didn't feel like looking up since I knew who it was gonna be. Cross.

They aggressively grab my hair and lifted my head and smashes my face to the ground repeatedly. "WE BOTH AREN'T NORMAL BUT I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I'M WORSE GOD DAMN IT!" Cross continues and starts laughing. They pull on the strands on my hair again, "Get off..aaah..haa.. GET YOUR FILTHY HANDS OFF OF MEEE!!!" I slap their hands away, they pulled small strands of my hair off and dropped it to the ground.

I cried. I don't know why.

Cross gets closer towards me as I backed away quickly. "I don't really regret what I've done. To be honest its quite fun!" Cross kicks me in the chest. I spit out some blood, "I really don't at all, I can go worse if you want..." Cross laughs and summons a sharp knife in their hand, and points it at my head.

"I could do this all day to you, watch you scream, cry, squirm, or even get angry or get in fear. Since I want to see you die inside." Cross puts the knife down, "Which I wanna see you do right now." Cross points their knife at their stomach and stabs themselves.

I was frozen in fear
as I watched them stab themselves
and rip their entrails out
My emotions were all over the place.

blood splatters everywhere
Cross was still alive and they hesitantly summoned a gun in their hand
My eyes widen even more
"Cross, don't you FUCKING DA-"

BANG!!

Cross shot their head off
the remains go everywhere
I start to get painful flashbacks as I start shaking.

I screamed in agony, I was crying again, I felt like throwing up, I wanted to gouge my eyes out of what I saw, I wanted to die so badly.

I puked in my hand, I felt dizzy and wanted to puke again. And so I did multiple times,

after a few minutes
I just say there staring at the body
feeling dead inside
it was silent except for the puke dripping from my mouth
I got up and grabbed the bloody gun and pointed it at my stomach
I was hesitant — I am still afraid of it.
I dropped it and grabbed the bloody knife