It's not you it's me

Chapter 15

I woke up to a hard surface on my face...wait...the surface is breathing...I shot up quickly but regretted it after because I ended up feeling lightheaded, I closed my eyes and counted to ten. When it went away I opened my eyes and was shocked to see Skylar still laying on my hospital bed, his shirt was a bit up revealing his perfect V-line, I bit my bottom lip and let my eyes scan his body. Why does he have to be so gorgeous? I thought to myself I looked at his face his lips were parted a bit and his eyelashes caressed his high cheek bones, I stopped eye raping him and looked around ,yesterday's scene was still planted in my head, I didn't expect him to kiss me or even come here we just met and he was already doing things that no guy has ever done to me. I won't deny it, I liked it I liked that feeling in my heart but I'm not sure if it was love or something else, I mean when he kissed me I felt something that was probably greater than love, when he walked into the room it's like everything just froze and all I could hear was my heart beating fast, I wanted to jump on him and just love him...is that what love feels like? Is that what it is, what it makes you do or want to do? I looked at him again with a sad face...I can't love him I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't get attached to anyone because they will just leave me, just like my own mother did. I put my head down and felt my eyes start to water I can't love him I can't get close to him I have to make sure I don't feel for him...I'll get hurt. I felt the tears run down my face and fall down my cheeks. I felt pain and I felt numb, I had no one I never did anyways. I felt the bed move and arms wrap around my body and without hesitation I started to cry out loud...I didn't know what to do...I just had one question in mind, why me?

"Skylars P.O.V"

I honestly did not think about kissing her, I don't know I just...I had to do it I love her too much to not want to do that. For freaks sake she's my mate! I can't help how I feel about her, were meant to be together it's our destiny but I'm afraid I may have done something terrible.

I went to hug Alice but didn't feel her next to me I opened my eyes a bit to see her with her head on her hands and she was shaking. I sat up and put my hand on her shoulder and suddenly she started crying out loud.

" Alice?" I said in a low tone

No answer

"Alice what's wrong please tell me?"

She looked up slowly and began sniffling, I sat in front of her and moved her hair out of her face, her eyes were blood red and her cheeks were stained with tears. My heart broke at the sight of my mate being like this it made me question if I did something wrong, but I haven't done anything to upset her, I looked at her eyes and my heart stung when she moves her head from my hold and looked down.

"Alice...what's wrong?"

No answer

"Please tell me what's wrong, what did I do?"

She looked at me with pitiful eyes, my eyes began to water and my throat began to sting. I felt hurt by her actions. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out so she sighed.

"Talk to me" I said to her while I put her face between my hands to make her look at me.

"I...I don't want to get close to you"

"What...why?"

"I'll get hurt"

"No you won't I won't ever hurt you I can't and I won't ever do something like that to you"

"I can't...Skylar I don't want you in my life anymore just go okay go I'm done"

"But-"

"JUST FUCKING GO SKYLAR I HATE YOU DONT TALK TO ME I DONT WANT TO GET ATTACHED TO YOU YOULL JUST HURT ME JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE I FUCKING HATE YOU AND EVERYONE IN THIS DAMN WORLD!!" She yelled in a whisper "just go..."

I looked at her with disbelief in my eyes. Tears were running down my face I didn't know what to do...I don't want to lose my mate. I sat there just waiting to see if she would take it all back, but she just stood quiet, so I got up and walked to the door but stopped before turning the knob.

"I'm sorry for trying to be there for you, I'm sorry for trying to love you and I'm sorry for being in love with you...you won't hear from me again...you want me gone I'll go but just remember this I was the only one who was willing to help you in order for you to live the life you wanted...I'm sorry for trying...goodbye Alice" and with that I opened the door and left. I ran out of the hospital as fast as I could to the nearest woods and destroyed whatever crossed my path not caring about who or what it was.

My mate hates me because of others. I screamed into the dark sky, while falling down to my knees I put my hands on my face and cried. I lost my love for something that someone else did, I curled up into a ball and cried not caring about getting dirty not caring about anything. I want her...and her only and I couldn't even have that, my life was so perfect with her in it even if I didn't know her for a long time, now it's a nightmare once again.

"What am I going to do?" I said to myself before falling into complete darkness.