It's not you it's me

Chapter 5

*Alice's P.O.V *

Have you ever been I don't know hypnotized by someone's touch and forgot what was going on? That's how I felt when Skylar touched my skin. I was lost hypnotized intrigued by his touch, I felt so calm and it's like his touch made the pain go away. I didn't mean for him to take my clothes off, but I was in so much pain that moving seemed impossible.

When I asked him if he could help me he seemed shocked and he suddenly just froze up, I stood there waiting for a response which never came so I spoke up, I was trying to snap him out of his daze it was freaking me out.

"What?" he said almost in a whisper, well I guess he's back I thought to myself

"I asked if you are okay" I told him worriedly

" um..um..y-yeah I'm fine I just tuned out I guess sorry" he muttered a bit, almost like if he was nervous "um I'll help you now" he said.

I looked at him with a confused expression but shrugged it off, well I think it was a shrug because I probably look funny with the shoulder movement I just did. He grabbed the bottom of my shirt why is he shaking? and lifted it up slowly he did it really slow like if he was attempting to not hurt me, when the shirt reached up to my chest and I heared him suck in his breath.

"Alice"

"Yeah?"

"I'm going to need you to lift your arms up I can't get the shirt off with your arms down"

"It hurts"

"I know but you have to try"

"O..okay"

I lifted my arms little by little till I got them high enough for him to take the shirt off. He slipped the shirt off and stopped when it reached my chest. He glared at my body, my body isn't all that I'm pretty slim curvy and thick and breasts were a C cup but the way he glared at my body made me cover up quickly insecure much? He coughed a bit causing me to look up. His eyes were marvelous, they were a grey brown color and his skin was pale and looked soft his lips were pink they looked kissable.

"Your eyes are gorgeous " he muttered to me

"Thank you" I said in a whisper

"Let me get your pants, um when I reach your thighs I'm going to need you to sit down so that I could take them off, okay?"

"Okay"

I got lost in his touch again, he was trying to take my pants off but I kept flinching when he would pull the pants down, when the pants reached my thighs I went to sit down but suddenly I heard a whimper. I looked down to see Skylar on his knees looking at my thighs crying I didn't know why at first until I looked at myself. My scars...I forgot about my scars! He was looking at them and crying. But why would he cry? it's not like I mean anything to him anyway.

"Why are you crying?" I asked him with no emotion

"B-because you...you cut your s-skin and and " he stopped and cried more. Did he really care about what I did to myself? No one ever cared not even my own mother so why does he?

"There's no need to cry Sky, it's nothing"

"What do you mean it's nothing of course it's something you're hurting yourself!" He stopped crying and took my pants off. "Look, I know that we don't know each other like that but I care about you" he lifted my chin up forcing me to look at him " I care about what you do to yourself"

I tried to hold the tears in, but I failed. They fell down my face and I couldn't help but whimper.

" I'm going to shower now" I looked down and even though my body hurt I removed my panties and stepped into the showers, I stood there letting the water run down my body. The door to the bathroom closed and I began to cry silently.