"mommy i'm so sorry!" Lily cries running into my room
I just look at her sadly and she jumps on me to hug me
"i didn't mean it! i don't hate you! i don't even know what hate means. i love you so much. please don't be mad at me! mommy you're my best friend i need you!"
"hey hey it's okay. i love you too baby. just know hate is such a bad word to say to someone like your mommy. it means the complete opposite of love. but it's okay"
i sit up and she's still crying while hugging me
"i'm the worse daughter ever"
"no you aren't lily you're perfect. can me and daddy tell you something"
"what?"
i look at daniel and he holds my hand
"mommy's having another baby and it's a boy"
"really! im gonna be a big sister?"
"mhm you will be"
"yay! wait but mommy you don't look happy"
"i'm just going through something right now. i'll be okay i promise"
"good cause i love you so much and i need you to be happy. i'm sorry again for what i said"
"it's okay don't worry at all. how was your first day"
"it was fun. i made new friends"
"what's their names"
"bailey and ryan"
"aw tell me more about them"
"well ryan is really really cute and bailey really nice. me and bailey have the same favorite color!"
"wow i'm happy for you. did you learn anything"
"mhm i learned the weather. there's sunny weather, rainy weather, windy weather, other weather but that's it"
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"we have to talk" Daniel says sitting next to me on the couch
after we talked about her day, she was super tired and she wanted a nap
"what is it now" i say nervously looking at him
"it's nothing bad i promise you. But i'm leaving the band"
"wait what?"
"yeah i can't handle it right now with everything. I want to fix our relationship, we're having another baby soon, our baby we already have is in school,, we have a dog. i'm growing up and i'm actually having a real family that i want to take care of. i already talked to them"
"but daniel you loved the band"
"i did but it wasn't worth it. look Jonahs the one who gave me that girls information and told me to text her. they all made me text her while i was with them too. they're not good influences on me"
"well whatever you decide to do i'll support you. do you have any plans on what you want to do now"
"yes. i hate being in the public eye so i'm going to do more management work. Eben's managers dropped him so i'm going to help him with everything"
"are you still friends with the others"
"i don't know right now. i want to try but if they're going to start causing issues in our relationship it's not going to last"
"so you're doing this for me?"
"yes and our family. a stupid band is not going to break up my family. i love you way to much to lose you again. I also want to go on a trip. We need a vacation"
"well our anniversary is soon"
"exactly. I have an idea of where I want to go. but that's a surprise"
"oh no i hate surprises"
"you'll like this one i promise. so how are you feeling now"
"i'm still thinking about today and i feel really heartbroken"
"but baby nothing happened"
"i know Daniel i just can't help but be sad knowing that you wanted someone else. nothing could have happened but it's the fact that some other girl has your attention. what does she look like?"
"i don't even know. the only reason why she even emailed you is because i rejected her. she came to the studio, tried to talk to me and get with me and i said no I'm married. l would never do something that terrible to you. you're the only girl in this world i want to be with please believe me"
"you have to prove it to me daniel. all i get from you are empty promises. you tell me you love me and do shit like that. you say you'll stop being mean and you call me a bitch. you say you don't want anyone else and then you try and cheat on me. i'm tired of pretending like its okay. you're older now daniel you need to start acting like it. be a good role model for Lily and then when she's older you can divorce me. just for now be a good husband to me please"
