Love X 4

15.

Isis' POV

I'm sweating like a sinner in church. What could they possibly have to explain to me? In my opinion, I'm the one who has to explain. I have to tell Jameela about the conclusion of Xiaojun's "experiment".

Jameela and I are sitting next to each other and Chenle and Hyunjin are opposite us. A waitress puts menus in front of us, which none of us even bother to look at. I start tapping my foot up and down and up and down and-

"Isis calm down okay. How ever mad you think Jameela is or is going to be, trust me, you'll probably be angrier." Chenle said and then suddenly  grimaced.

Oh.

Jameela kicked him under the table and now she's fake smiling at him.

"Go on, Hyunjin." She says with the same fake smile.
He takes a deep breath like he's about to get into a fight or something.

"There is no easy or right way to say this, well, to ask this- whatever- but before I dive into everything, you have to promise not to get too mad." He makes a cute face towards the end and I melt.

I sigh. "Fine, I promise."
"Pinky promise." He sticks out his pinky

Obviously I pinky promise him, Im the biggest simp and he knows I take these seriously.

Everybody should.

Hyunjin was just about to start speaking when, simultaneously, Jameela and Chenle stick out their pinkies. He looks annoyed.

"What?" Chenle starts "I don't want her mad at me."
"Me neither." Jameela says all pouty.

I pinky promise them too. What if this is really serious, like they're in the mafia or something. Or maybe they have plutonium. Or robbed a bank.

"Am I allowed to hear this news now?" Exasperation is audible in my tone.

"So..um...we are a throuple." Hyunjin says "and we'd like you to join uh.. us, I guess." Someone's nervous. I've never seen him so jittery.

I'd probably react if he was making any sense, but this all just sounds like gibberish to me. He can be so cute sometimes.

"What is this, a recruitment agency?" Chenle starts, I don't think he likes how Hyunjin said what he did.
"Babe, I don't think this is the time for an argument."

Jameela just called Chenle babe, hehe. That was funny.

Wait, did Hyunjin say "throuple"? Isn't that like, a relationship with three people? So it's him, Chenle and who? And how is this any of my business? And Jameela-

WHAT?!

Everyone was silent as they watched me do the math in my head.
My eyes widen with realisation and if I had water in my mouth, I'd probably choke.

I choke anyway and Jameela rubs my back for what feels like the hundredth time.

"Waitress! We're gonna need a water over here!" Chenle shouts out.
"Of course, would you like that with ice, lemon or-"
"Would you like my girlfriend to die while you go take us through your list of water decorations?" He asks making the waitress scurry off and quickly come back with a water for me, who cannot stop choking.

I'm his girlfriend?

I drink and Jameela continues to rub my back, I'm not sure how I feel towards her right now, so I shrug her hand off of me. My heart pangs.

Once I finished my coughing fit and am completely normal, I let down my dreads because all this pressure combined could probably cause a migraine.

I look at everyone at the table "So you.. you tried... you knew... am I... what??" I'm clearly not making sense.

I take a deep breath and gather my thoughts. Shouldn't I be excited? I'm polyamorous and I guess so is my girlfriend, and her boyfriends who just so happen to be the guys I like.
What a coinkydink.

But I still can't shake this feeling of...

Betrayal.

I feel like the butt of one big joke.
These people allowed me to feel like I was cheating, but they were all together and they-

"How long have you all been a thing?" I ask standing up, I just wanna leave and never show my face again.

This is a lot to wrap my big ass head around.

"Since a while before we met you." Jameela answers truthfully.

I want to cry and I'm not sure why.
(I'd be a pretty sweet rapper.)

"W-why didn't you tell me?" the question is for everyone, but my eyes don't leave Jameela.

"I didn't know how to. I... I thought you'd leave me. Isis I can't lose you, it hasn't even been that long but you mean so, so much to me- I"she trails off

Her nose has turned a light shade of pink and a few tears leave her eyes. It destroys my heart to see her like this. She lays her head on the table and sobs softly.

"That night... with the vodka, was that a... test? I mean, what if I didn't kiss Hyunjin? Would you all have just.... moved on? Am I just some experiment in this sick relationship of yours?!" Angry tears burn my cheeks.

"Are you all ready to order?" The waitress is back. We all just stare at her, like? Take a hint.
"I'll just come back later." She says with an awkward laugh.

I've never seen Chenle or Hyunjin look so sad. Yes, they both have dark personalities, but right now they just look completely shattered.

"Not telling you was my Idea Isis. I thought that somehow if we didn't tell you it'd make you stay. I didn't consider your feelings at all. I just -we just- all wanted you so badly." Hyunjin takes a deep breath "I-I'm sorry Isis." A single tear leaves his eyes.

"Isis please don't leave us." Chenle looks at me with glossy eyes "We can be everything you need and we promise no more secrets, just be our girlfriend. Please."
Jameela lifts her head off the table and looks at me with eyes full of hope.

I pick up my jacket and walk out of the restaurant. I hear them call after me but completely ignore them.

Once I get outside I just start running. I run as far as my legs will take me and somehow find my way back to school.

I head to my dorm, get straight into the shower where I break down.