golden fears

10 - warmth

josephines pov —

i ignore his call. i have no idea where i'm going, maybe i'll just drive around for a bit. i don't really have a choice since i don't know anyone else here, that's how i got stuck with hero in the first place. after driving around for at least an hour, it's now 11pm. i decide to finally go back to the apartment, he won't even notice i'm there but i definitely can't stay in my room while he's sleeping with another girl. the basement is pretty nice, it has a couch and a tv, and a snack bar if i get hungry. i think i'll sleep there tonight.

when i open the door the first thing i see is everyone playing card games scattered all around the house. of course the party has settled down once i get here. as i run up the stairs hoping hero didn't see me i hear him say something like "i'll be back in a sec" oh god no. i run into my room and lock the door, i still don't want to sleep in it since he'll probably be back up with that same chick later.

i hear a knock at my door, "jo?" i hear him say, i decide to ignore him.

"jo please talk to me."

"there's nothing to talk about hero everything's fine." please leave. please leave.

"then can you please open your door."

"im tired."

"okay so am i so let me come in then." hero please just leave.

i but my AirPods in and ignore him, hopefully he'll go away.

hero's pov —

what the fuck is wrong with me. I've been trying to get her to forgive me for years and once she does i sleep with another girl. what makes it worse is that she was gonna come talk to me about something, i still wanna know what it is. yet that doesn't matter now since she will probably never forgive me, which i get but it's not like we were dating. after not getting any responses from her i go back downstairs.

"hey guys the parties over grab your shit and leave." they all roll there eyes. yeah do that again and i'll drag your asses out. everyone leaves even morgz and felix, what is up with them never being here? I turn all the lights off and go into my room, it's not like i'll be able to sleep so i turn on some Netflix. I hear jos door open, i get out of bed and slowly i sneak a peak out of my door to see where she's going. she has a blanket, a pillow, and her phone, what the fuck? she goes into the basement. of course i'm not just gonna sit here. i go into the basement and see her fast asleep on the couch with the tv on. her face is soaked in tears, my heart drops. what did i do to her. she looks so peaceful sleeping, not having to worry about what fucked up shit i'm gonna do next.

the couch pulls out into a bed... even i didn't know that. shes like an angel, her full pastel pink lips, her little smile while she sleeps, her cute button nose. and of course the warmth she brings to my heart. before my mind can even say anything i'm tucked in next to her, my hands wrapped around her waist. i expect her to turn away, yet she turns her warm body and snuggles into my hard chest letting out a breath. i tuck her blonde curly hair behind her little ear, soaking in the sounds of her deep breathing while she sleeps. what have i done to her, she's perfect and i'm a fuck up. i slept with some chick while she was at work, i imagined it was her but i know that doesn't make it any better. i need to make it up to her somehow, i need to know what she was gonna tell me. but for now i'm gonna sleep and enjoy the moment , because i know when she wakes she'll be pissed.

josephines pov —

i remember everything that happened since hero snuggled into the bed with me. i guess it's a good thing i'm an actor. i couldn't push him away, not because i'll feel bad, but because i needed him as much as he needed me. even if it was just for him to be in the same room as me. i'm still so hurt about what i saw yesterday, i wish i hadn't seen it if i would have just heard it i think i would have been ok. i'm now laying here on my stomach, hero on my back also on his stomach, i never wanna leave this bed but i know soon i'll have to face reality. he lifts his body up and kisses my shoulder and then my cheek, i feel like mush from his touch. he whispers in my ear, "i'm so sorry baby." god i cant take it anymore, he can be so sweet when he wants to be. but i know i need to give him space before i can forgive him again. "please don't ever leave me." he says, his hot minty breath against my ear. he's now laying next to me instead of against my back, i open my eyes and lay on top of him. my head on his chest and my waist straddling his. i hold him tight. as tight as i can, he looks taken back, but then excepting the gesture because even he knows it may not last forever. "i never wanna leave you." i whisper, finally answering his statement. and once again i daze asleep under his touch on my smooth silky skin.

when i wake i don't see hero. i check my phone on the side table and it's already 1pm. i go upstairs and dont see him in the living room or kitchen. i go up the other stairs into the hallway and see our bathroom light on, or his i should say. i go thru my room and open the bathroom door, he's taking a shower. my mind fights against me, telling me no. but suddenly my clothes are off.

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• i hope you guys liked this chapter, i tried to add lots of detail <33