Revival

Chapter Twelve

That night, you had barley gotten a wink of sleep. All that was on your mind, was Justin. But eventually, you had drifted off into slumber.
When you woke up the following morning, you rubbed your sleepy eyes slowly.
You looked at the clock, seeing that it was only 7am.
A long sigh escaped your mouth, as you turned over.
The last thing you wanted to do, was wake up.
You just wanted to sleep the day away.
It hurt.
The way everything had ended up with Justin last night.
You honestly felt horrible.
The fact that, you knew you were starting to have feelings for him, but you treated him like that.
Also the fact that you had cheated on Jeremy.
All these things were in your thoughts.
Would you call things off with Jeremy? If so, would you go to Justin.. who most likely never wants to talk to you again.
Or would you leave Justin to feel the way he's feeling, and continue things with Jeremy, knowing what had happened last night.
You honestly just needed someone to talk about this.
You picked your phone up from the night stand, dialing Shelby's number.
It rang a few times, before she finally answeared.
Shelby: hello?
You took in a deep breath.
You: hey Shelbs...
Shelby: hey.. you okay?
You knew that she must heard the sadness in your voice.
You: are you working today?
Shelby: not till eleven..
You: can you please come over.. I really need to talk to you..
It was silent for a moment.
Shelby: right now?
You: Shelby please.. it's really important..
Shelby: well.. alright..
You: thank you..
You hung up the phone, setting it back down, then making your way to the kitchen, while you waited. She arrived about a half an hour later, and walked into the house.
Shelby- hey y/n, I'm here!
You walked into the living room.
You- hey..
She took her things off, opening her arms to you.
Shelby- what's the matter girly?
She spoke, as she helf you in her arms.
You sniffled a little, remembering the event.
You- can we sit?
Shelby- yes, of course..
You brought her to the couch, sitting down with her.
Shelby- so what's wrong?
You sniffled once again.
You- well.. you know.. me and Justin went out yesterday..
She nodded slowly.
You- and uhm.. it was late when we came back.. and uhm..
You chocked slightly.
You- he came inside.. and like.. like he was kissing me.. and I didn't want him..
You looked down, fidding with your fingers.
You- I didn't want it to stop.. and so, it didn't stop..
She placed her hand on her head.
Shelby- y/n..
You just sat ashamed of yourself.
Shelby- so you guys..?
You- had s*x yup..
You only nodded, blanking off.
Shelby- you've only known him for..
You- I know I know.. and now he's mad at me..
Shelby- what do you mean?
You sighed.
You- well.. after.. I told him to leave..
Shelby- y/n.. wait, who first wanted to.. you know..?
You- he did.. but then, I did.. so I guess both..?
She shook her head from side to side.
You- what?
Shelby- then what happened?
You- he got really upset.. like really upset.. and he was telling me how it wasn't s*x to him, and how he was..
She just stared at you, wanting you to continue.
You- he said that he was making love to me..? god I don't even know okay..
It was so weird to talk about this.
You and her talk about everything together. Even the other guys you'd been with.
But for some reason, it felt diffrent when it was about Justin.
You assumed that it was because, you truly truly had developed feelings for him.
Shelby- have you talked to him today?
You looked over at the clock.
You- it's 7:45 why would I have talked to him..?
Shelby- because you know you should..
You sighed loudly.
You- I just need some space you know..?
Shelby- y/n, you had s*x with him..
You squeezed your eyes shut in regret.
You- I know..
Shelby- so call him..
You- I'm not gonna call him Shelby..
She rolled her eyes.
You- stop.. you're supposed to be supportive..
Shelby- you know.. I'm always being "supportive" of you.. I've been here through every one of these little flings and breaks ups, and all the drama.. but you know what? This one is diffrent.. Justin's actually an amazing guy.. I believe that he was serious about it being in love to him, and not s*x..
She stood up.
Shelby- all he ever would talk about lately, was you.. how much he really really liked you.. how amazing you were to him.. how he just wanted to make you happy, that he really wanted you to know that you were loved.. and that he loved you.. but you don't even care..
You- I do care! God why are you both doing this to me?
She crossed her arms.
Shelby- no, why do YOU do this to everyone? You always treat the people that love you, like SHIT.. all you've wanted is that one guy that truly loved you for you.. and you had him, and just let him go..
You stood up as well.
You- go!
Shelby- excuse me?
You- go, I don't need your help.. you're just sitting here telling me how muchof a bad person I am.. well you try giving yourself to men over and over, with the same results.. then you can talk..
Shelby- but you choose this ending.. you choose to push him away.. when he didn't even want to leave..
She shook her head at you in disgust, then left the house.
Great, what should I do now?