Revival

Chapter Thirtyfour

You came home from hospital, in complete tears.
You had been informed that you were miscarrying the baby.
This news devastated you beyond belief.

As you got inside, you tossed your purse on the floor, and sank down the door to join it.

This was the worst feeling in the world.

You had been so scared to have a baby, but this was your baby, and there was nothing you could do for it.

You had already started thinking about your life with the child, and possibly even Justin, if things would work out with you two.

Your heart was so heavy right now, as the tears continued to fall.
The only sounds that you could hear, were the sounds of your loud sobbing.

The doctor had told you that, you would pass the baby within the next week or so.
Meaning that along with the blood flow, your deceased child would also come.

You sat there on the floor, until at least 10pm.

Justin had been texting you like crazy, all afternoon.
Sending you multiple messages.
Your house phone was also ringing off the hook.
Which you only assumed could be Justin.

The night continued to pass by, as you continued to sit in absolute despair.
You could hear a vehicle pull up to the house, then a door shutting.
You quickly reached up, and locked the house door.

Within moments, the handle started to wiggle from side to side.

Justin- y/n!

You could tell by his voice, that he was concerned now.

It had been quite a few hours, so his high was clearly down.

He started knocking on the door, extremly loud.

Justin- y/n!!
He yelled.

You just stayed silent.
There was nothing that you could say.
He had failed you today.
You counted on him, because he siad you always could.

Justin- open the god damn door y/n! I know you're inside!!

You sniffled a little, but didn't do as requested.

The pounding continued, while you remained in your depressed state.

The loudness soon calmed down, but there was a slight thump.

Justin- I'm not leaving, until you open the door baby..

You slowly reached up, and unlocked the door.
He started opening it, but waited for you to scoot away.

He gasped a little, when he saw you.

Your pants were completely soaked through with blood, since you hadn't gotten off the floor in hours.

Justin- y/n.. baby?

He knelt down beside you, trying to pull you into a hug.
You pushed his hands away.

You- where were you.. when I needed you..

Your eyes were gazing off in the distance, not really focusing on anything.

Justin- I'm so sorry.. I was being an ass I know..

You- do you remember?

He scrunched his brows together.

Justin- I remember some..?

You didn't speak.

Justin- it's our baby-

You- no Justin!

His eyes got huge.

Justin- |-|..

You- our baby is not okay! It's dying.. well it's already dead..

He looked down in sadness, letting out a long sigh.

Justin- god..

You just shook your head.

You- I needed you today Justin..

Justin- I'm here now..

He looked up at you.

You- I don't need you now..

Justin- yes you do..

You scooted away from him.

You- nope..

Justin- yes you fucking do y/n!

You- stop! why do you always do this?

Justin- me?! why do YOU do this!! I'm trying to be a good boyfriend! I'm trying to love you and care for you.. and be responsible but you've gotta fuck it all up!

You just stared at him.

You- I fuck it up?

He paused, regretting what he had said.

Justin- no look.. I'm sorry..

You- yeah cause.. I planned on getting pregnant..

He clenched his jaw in frustration.

Justin- you know that's not what I meant..

You- then what did you mean Justin? the baby is dead! my baby is dead! and-

Justin- my baby too..

He spoke firmly.

You- I have to carry a dead baby inside of me for the next week..

Justin- what?

You- cause I'm miscarrying Justin! It doesn't happen in one day.. but I guess you wouldn't know.. since you weren't there with me, to hear it..

Justin- oh my fucking god y/n! I wasn't myself!!

You- yes you were! that's you.. the Justin that likes to party.. the Justin that likes to get high.. when he promised me that he'd stop.. that he'd stop for me.. especially when he was gonna be a father.. but that was all a lie right?

He grabbed your face harshly, just under your chin.

Justin- don't fucking speak to me like that..

He spoke through gritted teeth, taking his hand off of you.

Justin- I never lied to you for god sake! you're just being a-

He stopped himself.

You- a what?

A tear trickled down his cheek.

Justin- I don't wanna fight with you..

You- too late..

He lifted your chin.

Justin- y/n.. please..

You sighed.

Justin- I'm sorry..

You- it's fine..

He got his feet, and pulled you up.

Justin- let's go get some clean clothes on..

He held you close, as he walked you towards your bathroom.