Revival

Chapter Fiveteen

You took a seat on the couch, with him sitting down as well.

You- so..?
Justin- well.. about last night.. like you already know how I feel about it.. but what about you?

He gave you curious eyes.
You thought about it for a little while.

You- uhm.. I'm not sure..
Justin- nothing at all..?
He questioned.
You just shook your head slowly.

Justin- well..
He laid a hand on your knee.
Justin- what does s*x mean to you..
You- s*x or making love?
Justin- we'll get that later..
You covered your face, almost in tears from how stressful this actually was.
You- this is so embarrassing..
Justin- how is it embarrassing? only we know..

You kept your hands over your face, trying to hide the truth.
He slowly removed them, giving you the serious eyes.

Justin- you told.. didn't you..
You- I needed someone to talk to..
Justin- then why not me?

You pushed his hand away.

You- because I needed extra help..?
He raised a brow questioningly, but not to sold on this.

You- it was only Shelby..
He slapped his hands against his thights.
Justin- great..
You- kinda seems like you're embarrassed of me now..
Justin- not at all.. Shelby just isn't the best at secrets.. like remember she told you like.. basically everything I said about you.. at the diner?
You nodded.

You- she does blabber.. but I still love her..
Justin- you don't corroborate me.. but I still love you..
He spoke making a point.

You- I get it Justin..
Justin- well.. you never answered my question..
You rubbed your forehead.

You- what was it again..?
Justin- what does s*x mean to you?
You- oh right.. S*x.. is just s*x..
Justin- alright.. how about intercourse?
Your draw dropped a little.

You- what the hell..
Justin- I wanna know how you decipher the difference between them all..
You- intercourse is just a fancy world for s*x..

He nodded, waiting a moment before speaking again.

Justin- okay.. now making love..
You- "making love" is just another pretty term for s*x..

He had a slight smile on his face.
But you knew that it wasn't a happy smile.
It was more a "can't believe she just said that" type of one.
You nuged him.

You- well what do you think..
Justin- I think that "s*x".. is just a way that people look at it.. so they can take the true meaning out of it.. by saying 'oh it's just s*x' it's not just s*x.. you're giving a huge part of you to that other person.. whether you've done it before or not..

You listened, a little uncomfortable, but still listened.

Justin- intercourse? intercourse to me.. it's when you're joining together.. you know.. in that moment, you're one with that other person.. people lose sight of that..

You continued to listen, although you felt as if you were in the hot seat.

Justin- and making love.. it's not a pretty word for s*x.. it's when you're showing that other person how much you love them.. like yeah I could have shown you in other ways.. maybe I should have.. but I wad making love to you.. I wanted to feel good, I wanted you to feel loved.. I was doing everything in that moment, to make you happy.. cause I loved you..

You shook your head.

You- you keep saying "loved".. what, do you not love me anymore?
Justin- stop.. but you know, that's why I was a little hesitant when you wanted to..

You lifted your brows at him.

You- wanted to..?
Justin- like.. be on top of me..
He spoke shyly.
You- ohh
Justin- yeahh.. yes..

He blushed while you just frowned.

Justin- cause like I've said a million times already.. I was only wanting to make love with you.. I didn't wanna do positions..

You scooted away from him.
This was the most aggravating talk that you've ever had.

You- thanks for making me sound like the bad guy..
Justin- you're not.. I'm only saying..
You- can we.. can we just stop talking about this..?

He stayed silent for a moment.
Justin- sure..
He then smacked his lips.
Justin- there's no further need for you to be here then..

You looked at him, but he wouldn't look at you.

You- really..? I thought we were gonna talk..
Justin- I thought so too.. but this is what we need to talk about..
You- I know I know..

You laid your arms over your lap.

Justin- like.. we need to figure out us..
You- I know..

He looked long and hard at you.

Justin- I know you have the other guy or whatever..
You- he's been my best friend since I was like.. really little..
Justin- yeah..?
You fiddled sigh your fingers.

You- I need time.. to know what's right for me..
He nodded.
Justin- what about me..?

You made eye contact with him.
His beautiful brown eyes, that seemed to hold so much hope in them.
No guy has ever looked at you with such love in their eyes before.
It really made you feel.. special for once.

You- let's just spend a few weeks away.. then like.. we can decide then?
He pondered on his thought.
Justin- if that's what you want..
You- well, what do you think about it?
Justin- I already know how I'll feel by that time.. but I'll wait..
You- alright..

You got up.

You- I should go..

He got up as well, following you to the door
You opened it, stepping out.
He gently pulled you back, wrapping his arms around you.

Justin- goodnight y/n..
He breathed against your neck, making you smiled slightly.
You- goodnight..

He released you, allowing you to walk off.

Justin- hey!

You turned, facing him.

Justin- text me when you got home.. just wanna make sure you're safe alright?
You- okay..

You smiled, then went to your car.