Talkative

Mornings

Ts pov
Before I even thought about it I typed the word beautiful out. I wish I would think before I did things. It's not like I didn't mean it, I absolutely did and that's what scares me. He's beautiful but I don't want to freak him out or anything like that.
       He didn't text back... I let out a deep sigh and continue my ride on the bus. Before I knew it my eyes shut and I was sleeping. I am used to accidentally falling asleep on the bus so naturally I wake up just beofre my stop. I walk up my apartment stairs, feeling every last drop of energy leave my body as I continue to go up. I keep my work shoes outside of my apartment, due to working in a nursing home as a cna ... who knows what I've stepped in. I enter and see my mom laying in the kitchen floor. My heart stops," mom?" I throw my belongings on the floor and rush to her and turn her to her side, all the tiredness has been replaced by adrenaline and worry. Just before turning her she wakes up. I sigh with relief, "mom, why are you sleeping on the floor????? The KITCHEN FLOOR." I angrily whisper, my mom shoos me away. "It was hot so I laid here, why are you yelling??" She tiredly says. I can smell the alcohol on her lips, I'm used to the smell, but it still makes me sick sometimes. I lay next to her and sigh," sorry thought you weee having another seizure and your probably feel hot because you have the heat all the way up again." I speak calmly. She turns over to face me "how was work?" Knowing I can't give to much information I give her a vague answer," it was...work" I sigh exosticly. "Mm" she says as she pretends to listen. Soon my eyes start to close, I had class in six hours so I needed to get some rest. I force my eyes open and get up from the floor. I change my clothes and grab a few pillows, I know if I wake her up again she's just going to cuss me out. I turn down the heat and place a pillow under my moms head, and lay another next to her. Once she was situated I made myself comfortable and laid next to her.

6:00 am
My alarm goes off, at first I try to ignore it but, once the sound becomes to unbearable I quickly sit up, "ugh I know I know I know!" I say as I fustratedly look for my phone. My mom grounds," turn that shit off,"she says angrily. I find my phone and turn it off. I force myself to get up. "Mom, time to get up." I say with zero energy. She rolls over. "Mom, come on you got work in a few" I say as I pull her up. She sits up and slouches over. I began to get ready, starting with my shower and bushing my teeth. My back was in a lot of pain, that is the last time I'm sleeping on that damn floor. As I rush to put on my clothes and do my make up I knoticed my mom slowly drifting off to sleep again. "Mom!" I yell. " quit all that hollering," she yells back. I decided not to argue back, "fine your an adult, do whatever you want." I say under my breath. I did not get that much sleep last night but getting a few hours of sleep was normal, I try to sneak in a few naps here or there. I check my cheap but cute watch. I guess I can't eat until later... "Mom, I gotta go. I'll see you later." I go to give her a hug but she brushes me off. "Love you too mom," I say unfazed. It didn't bother me as much as it used to, some days where better than other. My mom just...has her days I guess. I rush to put on my shoes and leave my house. I am praying today is okay.

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Hi sorry work is kicking my ass as always, fun fact I pulled a 12 hr shift and was running on 4 hrs of sleep while writing this <3 buttttt hope y'all like it or whatever. love y'all