But Still I Hold On

#2

Instead of waiting around, I decided I'd go talk to Carlos about it. I know he knows something about this. They are like best friends so I know that he told him that he was going somewhere other than home. I put on my shoes grabbed my keys and headed to my car. Carlos's house was only like 20 minutes away from where me and Alex lived. I pulled up to his house. His car was outside so I knew he was home. I got out of the car and knocked on the door.

" WHO IS IT?" "It's Jess." He opened the door. "Yo Jess, what's up?" " I need to talk to you." I said walking into his house before he could even say anything back. "Okay then."

I sat down on a chair he had placed in the living room. " Look Carlos I know you know where Alex was last night and if you care about me you'll tell me." I looked at him in his soft brown eyes and hoped he'd do the right thing and tell me.

He sat down across from me and sighed. " Jess you are one of my best friends and so is Alex i remember when ya'll first met"

"Carlos I need answers." I said cutting him off. He looked at me like he was scared that whatever he knew might break me. " Please Carlos if he's seeing somebody else I need to know before I get too hurt."

"Okay Okay...Yeah, he left here last night saying something about a girl he met at a bar. Her name is Shannon or something."

"Okay, thanks."

I couldn't say anything else I was hurt. I've been with him for over 5 years and he apparently couldn't care less about what we had.

Carlos got up and sat down beside me. " I'm so sorry Jess if you need me I promise I'm here for you." He said with a kind smile.

" Thanks, Carlos I appreciate that."

Carlos wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight. I feel like I need that. All I could do was cry I couldn't hold it back. The love of my life is cheating on me and lying about it. He was my first love. He was my everything and he just threw it all away for some bitch from a bar.

I wasn't gonna let this slide he had to learn his lesson.

I sat there with Carlos for a while. My phone started to ring it was Alex. I didn't answer I just decided to head home. I thanked Carlos for the kindness and I left.

I walked into the house and saw Alex sitting in front of the TV.

" Hey babe. Where have you been.?"
" I went to go for a drive to clear my head." I said as I started to walk upstairs.

I didn't wanna stay in the house all day so I called up May and asked her if she wanted to go to the club with me. I wanted to tell her what happened but it was better to tell her while we were out so I could be away from Alex first. She agreed to go out and told me to be ready by 12

I started to get ready at like 10 because it takes me forever to get ready.

I hoped in the shower before getting ready when I got out I walked into my room with only my towel covering my body to pick out what I was going to wear.

While I was looking in my closet for something to wear Alex came in the room.

" Where are you going?" He asked as he sat on the bed.
I gave him a short answer. "Out with May." I said

I picked out this pretty short red dress.

(the dress)

"And what do you think you wearing that." "yup."

I walked back into the bathroom to start getting ready. I could feel Alex staring at me. I knew he was mad about the dress I picked but at this point, I didn't care.

" Yeah, No I don't want you wearing that."
I laughed at the fact that he thought he had a say in what I could wear. " You can't tell me what not to wear Alex.

He got up and walked into the bathroom and stood behind me. He reached his arms around me. "But I can." With that, he moved my hair to one side and kissed my neck softly.

His kiss was soft and sweet. I felt a chill run down my spine. I knew what he was doing. He tried to make me want to stay home instead of going out.

I turned around to face him. " Alex im going out and I'm wearing that dress. I'm grown and I can do whatever the hell I wanna do. Now move." I pushed him off me and turned back around to finish my hair.

I saw him in the mirror looking at me like he was mad that I told him something he didn't wanna hear. I continued to get ready he stayed in there looking at me for about 30 minutes.

After a while, he walked out. I finished getting ready. I put on some black heels and some diamond earrings to finish the look. I heard somebody come into the house I thought it was May but then I heard a deep voice and figured it was Carlos. After May texted me and told me she was outside I got my silver purse and headed downstairs.

When I walked down I saw Alex and Carlos sitting on the couch. "Alex May is outside i might not be back tonight so don't wait up."
" Damn Jess you look amazing." Carlos said with a nervous smile on his face. It made me blush a little. " Thank you, Carlos." I said smiling.

" What do you mean you might be back?" Alex said looking back at me. " If I drink too much I'm staying with May if not I'll come home." I said. Before he could say anything else I walked out the door. I got in the car with May. She was dressed in a purple top with a black miniskirt and some black heels. Her hair was curled up.

" Girl you look sexy as hell." She said as I got in the car. " Thank you girl you don't look so bad yourself."

We both laughed a little and then she dove off. After a good 30 minutes, we pulled up to one of the most popular clubs in Atlanta.