But Still I Hold On

#11

Carlos POV

Have you ever felt like your heart broke in two like your life just ended because you think you lost somebody. That's how i felt the whole way. I held her in my arms. Her blood all over me. I was having a panic attack. I just wanted her to live. I wasn't taking my eyes off her until i knew she was still with me.

I had private doctors. The best ones in the state.Timothy made the call and they met us at his house. She passed out she did lose a lot of blood she's a fighter i know she gone make it out of this.

I layed her in a room and let the doctors do they stuff. I went into the living room with the guys and sat down.

"Boss this is our fault we should've left her alone and listened to you."

I didn't wanna say anything because the way i was feeling i knew i was gonna say something i'll regret. We sat there for hours waiting and waiting. One of the doctors came out the room and in there with us.

"Your friend Jess lost a lot of blood. We managed to get the bullet out and stop the bleeding."

"Is she alive doc? That's all i wanna know."

"Yes your friend Jess is fine. But i don't see her waking up anytime soon her body needs to to heal."

Thank god. I felt a weight left off my chest.

Me Milo Damien and Timothy walked in where Jess was and we all stood by her bed.

"Why the fuck didn't i know she's been working with you guys? I'm in charge and i told you to leave her out of this."

"We know, but she agreed to it. We told her everything that could happen and she still wanted to do it."

"She kept it from me?''

"She doesn't know you our boss we never told her. She just found out that me and Milo sent Timothy to her."

"But you didn't see her the past couple of months. That girl is a freaking goddess. Her fighting is amazing. Her gun skills are almost perfect."

"I don't care Timothy i told all three of you to leave her out of it and you went behind my back and made Jess a killer."

"With all due respect sir we never made her into anything we just let it out. She was in a relationship where she couldn't be herself. She was trapped and we let her free. She's broken and the shit we taught her to do only gave her something to focus that energy on."

"You had no right to make that choice for her!"

"You had no right to keep her from making the choice herself! She's not a fucking kid Carlos you can't keep protecting her."

"She fucking got shot Timothy. I could've lost her!"

"We could've lost her! You are not the only person that cares about her!"

"You put her life in danger!"

"And i hate that but i don't regret teaching her!"

"She could've died!"

"It would've been worst if she didn't know the skills she know if she would've went to the ball clueless like you want her she would've been walking into a trap they would've took her out to get to you!"

I couldn't say nothing because he was right. She did good. She killed 3 full grown men. If they didn't teach her she wouldn't have known what to do..

I sat down by her and held her hand. She told me she loved me. She thought she was dying. Is she gone feel the same when she wakes up and know she survived?