A life of heartache and betrayal is all Jess knows. Being alone and fighting to be happy everyday is all she can do. What happens when her life changes in ways she never imagined? Falling in love and starting a new life. Would she be able to hold on?
I couldn't do it. I couldn't pick up. It kept ringing. "Don't answer Jess just ignore her you need time to heal and talking to her will only make that harder."
He was right if I answer she'll just try to make me forgive her and me being me I know I will. I need to focus on myself for once. So I turned my phone off and continued to chill with Carlos.
It got late so I headed to bed. I couldn't sleep so I just laid in the dark. Being alone only makes me get to thinking and I hate that. I tossed and turned all night just thinking about everything I had been through. I never thought I'd be going through all this. It sucks really. I wanted to cry but I think I was out of tears. I lost the love of my life and my best friend in one day. I feel so fucking weak and hurt. I hate feeling like that.
Soon I ended up falling asleep. I woke up to the smell of coffee. I heard a knock on my door. "come in." Carlos walked into the room. "Hey sunshine how you feeling?" "I'm okay I guess."
he smiled and sat on the edge of the bed. "That's good well I gotta go handle some business I'll be gone for like 1 hour or 2 I made coffee umm...are you sure you'll be fine for a few hours without me?"
"Yeah go handle your stuff."
"Alright." he hugged me and then left the room.
I guess I'll shower to clean the sadness off me. I grabbed a towel and got ready to shower before getting in I put on some music one of my favorite songs. Mirror talk. As the music played I stood in the shower and let the warm water run down my body.
Music is like my gateway. It helps me heal when I'm alone. I stayed in the shower for a while.
I got out and wrapped my towel around my body. I looked in the mirror and tried to smile trying to convince myself that today would be better than yesterday was. I decided to let my hair air dry so it could curl up on its own. I washed my face and brushed my teeth. I walked out of the bathroom and looked through the stuff I did have. I didn't have time to get all my stuff from the house and I sure as hell wasn't going back for them.
I changed into a simple but cute outfit for today. A plain black crop top and some blue jeans shorts.
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After I changed I decided to head downstairs to get some coffee. I walked down and went into the kitchen and made me a cup of coffee. I sat down on the couch and looked at TikToks to pass the time. An hour or so passed by and Carlos came home. He and two other guys walked in I didn't recognize them. I stayed there and just minded my business and stayed on my phone. The guys walked into the kitchen but Carlos sat on the couch beside me. He looked at me and smiled. "What?" "Nothing nothing at all." I smiled and rolled my eyes. The two dudes came into the living room with me and Carlos and sat on the two chairs that were placed in there.
