WAVING THROUGH THE WINDOW | 김선우

19 ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛɪɴɢ ᴅᴀʏs

"you made everything worthwhile, thank you."

sun of a-🙄🌞

morning!

7:38

hello

r u dead?

14:51

gyeoul?

16:24

hm maybe you're busy

ur light's on and so im assuming ur doing smth

pls text me when u see this

18:03

morningg

8:10

not to be that friend but it's kinda unlike u to be unresponsive for this long

i hope ur ok

pls be ok

17:12

Sunoo has been overthinking and anxiously waiting for a couple of days. 

What did I do?

He's been thinking about every possibility he could think of to reason out why Gyeoul would ignore his texts; racking his brain for every and any reason—even the most random or obscure theories he could come up with. None which made sense enough for him to even slightly understand Gyeoul.

Sunoo knew one of his friends, Jay, who met Gyeoul a couple of days ago. He didn't go into detail about how their unexpected meet went, he just just mentioned that they talked for quite some time and went to get food, then Jay walked her home.

The day before that, Gyeoul was with Heeseung, Sunghoon, and Jungwon to hang out. None of the four shared anything bad happening to them during their day out.

Sunoo was frustrated, he wanted to cry because he couldn't figure out why Gyeoul was acting this way towards him.

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Gyeoul felt guilty.

It's been a couple of days since she last talked to Sunoo, she has been avoiding his messages because ever since her unplanned meeting with Jay, their conversation has been in her mind just like Jungwon's words. Gyeoul has been pondering her feelings a lot since.

"Just because you like the person doesn't necessarily mean that you're ready for something beyond friendship. You don't have to put yourself in that position if you can't say that you're ready without hesitation."

Gyeoul didn't understand herself. Why was she even avoiding Sunoo? It's not like he did anything worth ignoring him. She simply didn't understand her feelings and subconsciously decided that she'd keep a distance thinking that would help her case. I mean two people have already talked about the situation with her, making her think that maybe there is something there that she didn't notice but other people did.

Jay and Jungwon know something she can't understand and it scares her how much they can read through her when she didn't even realise these feelings or thoughts were clouding and taking over her days.

Fuck it.

hi

im sorry for not replying, i had a lot on my mind and it def isn't a reason for me to ignore ur messages.

im really sorry

im ok btw, sorry for worrying u too, i didnt mean to