2:35 am
i'm listening to repetitive songs feeling static instead of you
i thought about writing a love poem but instead i feel rose thorns growing out of my right forearm
what do yellow and mint swirls mean? how about muddyish pink? a tired wolf just floating in the trees?
these are me but my mind is cracking with electricity
am i making any sense to you?
please pick up the phone
i'm screaming about all i know
the tone of my writing is not about love
it's not about you, i kinda wish it was
would it be cuter?
is my poetry just another quirky dream girl perk?
i'm falling backwards over and over with my eyes vibrating upwards
manic pixie that's me
"not like other girls" you tease
feel the screeching in my ribs as the record snaps in the back of my neck
is this all vague enough for you
is it deep if no one but i can understand it?
IM ALONE HERE IN MY MIND
except i have me me me for company
all the different parts i like to see
creative stoner with a tongue of foam
eyes so red with laughter behind a curled up hand
don't look don't look don't look
i'm so glad you think i'm adorable and "wonderfully weird"
"i'm possessive i want to cuddle you all the time"
i w a n t y o u t o b e c o m e e n e r g y i n m y c o r e l e t m e a b s o r b y o u
i can't ever fucking show you this but there's just the tiniest part that hopes you betray my trust to find it
like jesus and judas i guess
behold my love and acceptance
feel the warmth coming from my heart
can't you see that i'm holy?
screaming of biblical [aliens] in my ears
someday i'll be able to decipher them
my sense of prophecy is growing stronger every night
i'm a seer for the new generation of indigo children
the words of prophets are written in the ramblings of the schizo's notes
don't share not yet they aren't ready
wait
wait
wait
ok
transmission incoming
riots
sickness
our modern era is history
the homes of the poor will crumble to the march of the hunters boots
gassed over and over
the death will reach the lungs first
for your protection do not pay attention
eyes of the controlled watch from everywhere
no escape no safety for the unlucky
but there won't be enough anger
other then that filled fighting each other
not quite civil anymore
a fascist nation has been enforced
within the next eight years
chipped and tracked
sterilize the penniless
there's no need for them if they aren't going to feed the digital god
watch the digits go up with every sacrifice
rat out your neighbor
camps for the ill thoughts that plague your mind
they'll pluck them out for you
"homeschooling is for the crazies
trust your educator"
violent porn on the rise
pedophilia on the rise
trafficking in demand
sell the children sell the sterile would've-been mother
get addicted feel the rush
stay distracted try this new drug
beware the needles
beware the chips
no one is safe
no one is hidden
consume the world around you
3:00 am
THE PRISONS THE CAMPS THE TRAFFICKING
NO ONE IS LOST
TAKEN AWAY TAKEN AWAY TAKEN AWAY
screaming teeth consuming the back of my skull
hands reach through my eyes crying for help
forgotten milk cartons
humanity stolen and given a price tag
I WISH YOU WERE AWAKE TO DISTRACT MY MIND
but that's a little too much isn't it?
so dramatic but there's no need for anyone to know
silly human silly adorable child
there's no need for that
you're held wherever you go
[aliens] and ancestors cradle you in their arms
awakened too soon but you know why
the higher you reach the vibrations soar
kindness in place of empathy
be the comfort
accept the punishments
balance is all
flow knows best
just go with it just go with it
am i really doing ok?
this is happening just as you're sick you know
too sick to interact with me
too sick to comfort
i want to make it all stop
you told me to let you know any time i'm feeling this way
but you're being plagued by the virus pandemic
higher i go i suppose
