i constantly forget that i'm bad at communicating
it's not that i don't try, i just don't know how
my words spin around, i use too many metaphors and speak gibberish
"things that are things that just spikey the spikey things on the fruit that have a sun"
people ask me, "what did you say?"
and i can't remember
how can i expect to be understood when my mind is bouncing from sound wave to sound wave?
skin melting like wax, bugs in my hair, demons in my bones
DEMONS IN MY BONES
it's just just just a repeating record of the same shit
"it's not real"
i know i know please please please
i know it isn't real but that doesn't change the sensations
knowing that they're delusions and illusions makes me want to scream
"IT HAS TO BE REAL, MY FEELINGS ARE REAL"
IM HERE
I EXIST
(but do i?)
PLEASE LISTEN
