i wish i had the ability to scream
everyone else seems to be able to
why can't i
the way you make me feel
makes me hate my body
my voice
my smile
makes me want to cover myself
my eyes
my ears
i want to scream
i want to tear my throat open with tears
but all i can do is sit here
quietly
the rotting won't be noticeable until i collapse inwards
and the smell fills the room
the stench of the hate you poured into me
the sickly sweet words you would whisper
with which you violated me
injecting the mold directly into my body
no filter
rot rot rot
i wish i could just scream
