i feel the spirits of goblins when i wake up
they whisper my name and laugh me
they are always at the edge of my vision
i have been seeing bugs everywhere, but they aren't there
what does that mean?
maybe the universe is trying to tell me something
it's telling me something
its chosen me to be its priestess and i am supposed to help cleanse this world with fire
that's why my main astrological signs are fire, don't you see? don't you understand?
i'm yelling and showing until it becomes too much too much and everything just needs to
stop
the shadows are reaching for me
there are demons and ghosts waiting
i'm trying to tell you but my words my words they they repeat and s-s-stutter out until it's all just
nonsense, how can you not see
there were two traffic cones right there and now there's only one
the world is glitching our reality is falling apart
the shadows are reaching for me
have i already said that? I don't remember
every
loud
and
sudden
noise
is an attack
a gunshot in another reality, killing another version of me
am i next? would i care? i'm not sure, my emotions are apathetic
no, everyone else is just overreacting, there's nothing wrong with me
i am better than them, they're all idiots
too loud too obnoxious they're YELLING AND IT'S TOO LOUD
is it a competition or am i just overstimulated
imperfection, too skinny I can feel all of my bones
my joints jut out, what are these marks and bumps on my skin
get them off get them OFF
i'm bleeding
i'm seeing past present and future all at once, it's all a blur
my reality is wrong i'm sober but i feel like life is just one big
psychedelic
i'm not grounded enough i can't get too high or i'll float away
too bright too bright is there a crunch is it in my head or is it real
i don't know can you tell me please help me
don't you know the universe is trying to tell us something
i can't breathe black spots are closing in there's a ringing in my ears and i can't feel
my nerves are shot, i was shot, this is death
a panic attack
what am i scared of i'm not even sure i can't feel the fear only the paranoia
i'm looking at the wall i could've just sworn i was in the forest
did i jump to another reality i'm not sure
no no i was daydreaming i know where i am i was supposed to be messaging someone back
back
back
my back hurts when i focus on it
i can't tell if this is a dream
the desk is too warm
warm
i wouldn't feel warm if this were a dream
i'm carving a leather mask, my hand is s-s-shaking but i don't know why
the blade in my hand doesn't feel real i don't know what's real
nothing is real and nothing matters
i could just stab my leg, stab it do it it won't even hurt i can't feel pain
i'm divine and the pain won't reach me
nothing exists this is a lie you're lying you're LYING
you can't see this glitchy world
but i'm not delusional, you're just blind
