Our New Life

Chapter 22

They both stayed in each other's warmth fearing one of them would just disappear any moment.

He could feel her sobbing in his chest.

She was crying as if telling him about the loneliness, the guilt, the voidness inside her. She wanted to let everything out of her.

She wanted to tell him how much he mattered to her before this moment would become just a dream.

He cupped her face, wiping the tears from her face. She placed her hands on his "I missed you" she whispered.

"I know sweetheart. I missed you too. I thought I lost my chance. I lost you." He choked on his words

"I started to look for you, what happened to you, how you lived your life, something about you. Are you alive or... but I couldn't find a single thing, which made me more restless."

" and now seeing you here, as if nothing changed. As I've been given a chance. And it's okay if you have moved on, built your life. It's just... seeing you here is enough for me. I'm sorry..."

"Don't you dare. You have nothing to be sorry for. Don't apologize for doing something good. You did your job and I'm proud of you for that" She cut him off and said with a stern voice. The sternness he hasn't heard before. She cupped his cheek seeing him leaning into her touch.

She didn't want him to feel bad because of what he did. That was the thing she admired about him, his humanity, his courage. Which she didn't have anymore.

Her eyes glowing, nose flushed from crying.

Steve kept looking at her and she knew what he wanted. And suddenly she was selfish and changed her mind to tell him anything, maybe she could compel him?

But she could never do this to him, she would have to tell him eventually.

"I know you have a lot of questions but... not here " he nodded, giving her time to gather some courage again.

They both remain silent when she suddenly changes her posture, trying to look professional.

"Now back to the point I'm here for the interview. And fury told me to impress the captain which sounds inappropriate but I bet seeing me cry wouldn't make you impress." She joked trying to make the mood lighten.

He looked at her, straightened his head, and asked, "well ma'am I would like to know about your qualities? Your abilities to become an avenger." She chuckled at his words.

"You see Mr. Stark also asked this kind of question and I just knocked the wind outta him"

Steve raised his brow at her as if challenging her. And without any warning, she pulled him against the wall just like she did with tony.

Steve was shocked at her "you have... you have fast reflexes" it was more like he was telling himself than asking her. Now he was more desperate to ask what happened.

And she knew what was going through his mind. And all of a sudden the proximity gave her a bit of courage. She brought her lips near his face. "Soon pretty boy" she whispered against his skin before pulling out.

She smirked seeing his flushed face, he was still her shy steve. Steve cleared his throat feeling awkward.

"So.. you met the team?" he asked.

She hummed in response. "Actually I'm a member too now. Gonna join Miss Romanoff tomorrow for training."

He nodded in reply and kept looking at her. There were so many things he wanted to ask her but he had to wait.

They walked outside the room towards the lift. Tony saw them together.

"Ooh, so you met the new girl alone huh" he smirked, teasing them.

Steve cleared his throat on his remarks but y/n only smirked.

"Well, I had to impress the captain. So it was better to have some alone time with him, to demonstrate my abilities" tony chuckled at her word.

"Is he impressed?" Y/n looked towards Steve who was busy getting flustered.

"Pretty much," she said, turning towards Tony with a smirk. "See guys tomorrow"

Saying that she left the men alone. Tony kept looking at Steve with raised eyebrows. "You got moves, old man" Steve sighed and left before his teammate could tease him more.

He was indeed impressed by her. She wasn't this bold before, he hadn't seen her like that. She was changed. She had become a confident woman in those years.

But how was she there? He still needed to find the answer.

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Y/n came home and straight went to the kitchen to quench her thirst.

After that hectic day, she needed a drink.

Pouring a glass of bourbon with blood she went towards her couch.

Her thoughts went to Steve, how different he looked from her little Stevie. But still, he felt the same.

She knew he wanted to know about her. How she was not dead or was on the death bed. She chuckled thinking about that.

Sooner or later she had to tell him, so why did she want to delay it.

The sooner she tells him her truth the better.

What if he rejects her after that or is disgusted by her.

She was a fucking vampire, she can literally control his mind.

Her mind was filled with thoughts when her phone rang bringing her out of the thoughts.

She took the phone and smiled seeing Damon's face on display.

"Tell me every detail like I'm your girl bestie" that's how he greeted her.

She chuckled, shaking her head. "Well, I met him." She bit her lip.

"And..." his voice was annoyed.

"I didn't tell him... yet."

"So you are changing your mind" she could feel the smirk in his words. She rolled her eyes and sighed.

"No, but I need some time. I can't just drop a bomb on him like that. He was pretty shocked at seeing me, imagine telling him I'm a blood-sucking monster that time" she chuckled. But Damon knew it was forced.

"Look y/n I already told you and I'm gonna tell you this one last time. You are not a monster, stop saying that. And he loves you, heck Elena loves me when I'm this. He loved you when you were a human, how can you say he won't love you anymore just because of what you are. Humans can't shut their feelings by switching some button"

He was right, she couldn't just assume things and avoid telling Steve. "You are right. Maybe... I'll try tomorrow"

"Oooh!! So you are an avenger now huh" she giggled. "Yes, so from now beware of me. One wrong step and you'll be in danger" her threatening just made him scoff.

"You won't dare "

"Try me," she said shrugging.

"Oh don't tempt me to come over there and show you I'm stronger than you"

She scoffed at his words and said her goodbyes as she had to wake up early tomorrow, for her training.

The excitement to see him again made her feel like a teen girl meeting her crush. She chuckled and laid on the bed closing her eyes with a happy sigh...
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A/N: once again I'm sorry if you have to wait too much for this but I wasn't feeling well :))) and also I don't think I'm doing good with this shitty book ✨💀