When We Meet [COMPLETED] [REVISING]

Chapter 13 : First

Anthony’s Point of View

Tinatahak na namin ni Mica ang daan pauwi sa kanila. After the party, I insisted of driving her back to their house. Total ako naman ang sumundo sa kanya, why not be the one to drove her back to their house?

Besides, I still want to be with her even for a short span of time. I need to, I want to. Gusto ko na kahit na iniisip nya na hindi ko siya naaalala ay maramdaman naman nya. Gusto ko na maramdaman nya na nandito ako.

I’m now here physically. I’m here now, baby. I’m home...in you.

Nagkapilitan pa nga kami kanina para lang hayaan nya ako na maghatid sa kanya. She wants to leave alone, to go home alone. But why would I let her be alone if I’m already here?

I’m already here, baby. Just please wait. I didn’t forget my promise to you, but still, I want you to love me as Mark but not the Anthony you fell in love with.

Hindi na ako aasa pa. Bakit pa ako aasa pa kung alam ko na, na mahal na niya ako? Mahal na niya ako. Mahal na ako nung taong mahal na mahal at hindi ko kayang mawala pa sa’kin.

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Naging tahimik ang naging byahe namin ni Micaela habang pauwi sa kanila. Walang nagsalita sa aming dalawa sa buong byahe na maririnig mo na miski ang tunog ng aircon sa sobrang tahimik naming dalawa.

It feels like a de ja vu. Ganyan rin kami before we became close. Walang pansinan hanggang sa nagkausap at nagdire-diretso nalang. It feels surreal to think that it’d happened, but it hurts the same time as I think that there’s a possibility that I can’t bring it back anymore.

Whenever I’m with her, I feel so free. Like I can do anything with her by my side. Corny it is to hear, but that’s what I feels when I’m with her. Sya yung babaeng hindi ko man inakalang dadating sa buhay ko, but I’m thankful she did.

It feels like eternity, a fantasy, a dream, that I don’t want to end nor to be awakened from ever since when we meet. She’s like my paradise that I can’t leave for a second. I’m craving for her presence. I’m always in find of her.

I can’t lose her. Not when I’m alive, and I can make her mine.

“Thank you sa paghatid,” she said, with a faint smile on her face, as she opened the door of my car.

I miss your smile. I miss your laughs. I miss everything about you.

Hindi ko yata kaya na hindi makitang muli sa kanya yung mga bagay na inaasahan ko pa rin sa kanya ngayon na nagbalik na ako.

“You are welcome, my Queen,” I replied with a slight smile on my face as I look at her. Adoration, affection, and longing is clearly mirrored in my eyes right now. I just hope she can’t see through me that much.

I know she’s confused why I’m smiling at her with the fact that I never smiled to anyone as Mark. Pero paano ko pipigilan na huwag ngumiti kung nandito ang babaeng nagpapasaya sa’kin palagi? Paano ko pipigilan na lumabas ang mga ngiti ko kung nandito yung babaeng handa akong maging kahit na sino basta para sa kanya?

Paano ko pipigilan na huwag maging masaya ngayong magkasama na kaming dalawa? Na pwede ko na siyang mahawakan, mayakap, at makasama.

“You... smiled,” she commented after a while of being silent, still seated in my car.

Yes, baby. For you, I’ll smile. But you should know that I’ll only smile for you only. Only for the woman I love the most. Sorry, Mom, Tita, and Lola. But this girl with me right now is the girl I will love the most from now on and will never want to ever lose her. Takot ko nalang na mawala sya sa’kin ‘no. Baka ikabaliw ko ang paghahanap sa kanya.