I, Devil (a love story)

Chapter Thirty Eight: Meresin

How was I supposed to 'Choose Love,' which was all that God had said, when I couldn't even see it? How was I supposed to bring them together when Wendy flat out rejected him? I couldn't just leave Noah. We made a deal. He even allowed me the use of his body at times. I wanted to see him succeed. I wasn't interested in consuming his consciousness or his complete inhalation. I didn't want to see the destruction of the universe, either. There had to be a way out.

I reached out and felt of the dimension that was pushed into the Void. It was all in pieces, broken into tiny bits as if crushed through a black hole. Which was the truth. The Void was just the end of the universes, every last black hole pulled into a point. It is exceptionally complex but I had nothing but all of eternity to figure it out. Then, I made a map of the Void. It was every last star in the universe pinpointed together. The problem was that the dimension that Azazel pushed into the Void was essentially crushed and scattered through infinity.

There was no way I could put what he ruined back together. I would have to locate every molecule in that dimension and recover it. It would be putting back a jigsaw puzzle with infinite pieces. I could only move around and put back together myself. I didn't feel I had enough ability to navigate anyone or anything else through the Void. Just because I understand the Void doesn't make it easy.

No one in the history of the universe has figured out love as a basic element. No one has truly understood the depth of love's equation. It was a never ending, ever changing elusive thing. In a way it was like the mathematical number, pi. It was a thing that couldn't be held, slipping past me like water through fingers. However, I felt like it was the last thing to discover before the universe dissolves entirely. I thought it might help me change the current trajectory the active timeline is on, if it could be changed. It gave me a reason to continue.

I couldn't observe love-- I could not 'Choose Love,' --if when I get close to it, it then becomes extinguished. Wendy refuses to date Noah. When I possessed Noah and kissed Wendy on his behalf was the closest I had ever been to love as a vibrational element in its proximity. It felt over. I confronted Wendy herself in her dreamworld and she still refuses to date him. What can I do?

I exited the Void and went to Fairyland-- or rather what was left of it.

Fairyland exists in Purgatory. It was located in a place that was neither Heaven, Hell, nor Earth. It was adjacent to the dreamworld. Humans, especially those of fairy lineage, often visit Fairyland when they are asleep. It wasn't entirely a safe place, but it wasn't horribly unsafe either. Sometimes people got lost in it. People like Johann Bader, who I recently rescued and who started this whole journey, through which I met Wendy.

I no longer needed a magical spell or a portal to get to Fairyland. I could see it from the Void, a broken and shattered plane of existence.

It was still there, just much smaller than it used to be. I opened a portal, a window, so I could observe Fairyland from the Void. In the past, Fairyland was difficult to travel to. It was specifically shut off from the rest of the universe. It was shelved when it was no longer needed. Fairies cut themselves away from Earth, which has since belonged to the humans. They were obsolete. The majority of decent fairies interbred with humans--which is how we have humans such as Wendy.

Hybrid humans were clever, creative, and social. They were interesting...but also flighty, fickle, and rebellious. They also possessed the ability to see and speak to spirits better than other humans. I decided to push myself through the portal from my home in the Void and traveled directly into Fairyland, or rather what was left of it.

It was like walking through water without getting wet. I moved from the Void through my window into Fairyland. I didn't have a particular destination in mind. If Fairyland were like a continent on Earth, it would be the size of Australia. It is massive. Most of it is wild and was ruled by the Winter and Summer courts-- a government structure based upon greed, family, power, and rivalry (which did nothing in actually organizing Fairyland into a functioning plane of existence.)