Conviction

5

Chapter 5:

Dean looks at me wide eyed and i cock my head at him taking another bite of my pizza. I swallow and ask "Why are you looking at me and not the screen?"

"You've had five pieces of pizza."

"I already told you she could eat." Heaven mumbles and i nudge her with furrowed eyebrows. "What?"

"Shut up i dont eat that much." i mumble taking the last bite of my pizza. My phone rings and i frown picking it up.

"I got called in to work hunnie i'm sorry. Candice is watching the Lewis's tonight so she can't come." My mother says when i answer.

"It's alright momma. Heavens staying. We'll be there shortly." i says sadly because i dont want to leave but my mom wouldnt ask me to come home unless she really needed me to.

"I'm sorry baby i called Ted but he didnt answer so i guess hes sleep and i called grams but she isn't feeling well. I really tried everything."

I look at Dean and he has a disappointed look on his face. "Mom i said it was okay. I understand we're gonna say goodbye and then we're headed out."

"I love you and sorry again." she says apologetically.

"Bye mom love ya." I hang up and frown. "Mom got 'called in so we have to go." I infrom Dean and he stands with me and Heaven. "Bye guys." i wave and they all get up giving me and Heaven big hugs. She's shy but she got to like them over the five ours we were here. Blaze walks her to the door and talks to her quietly as i talk to Dean.

"Will you still call me?" he asks and i give him a puzzled look i was just with him all day.

"Really? You're not tired of me?"

Dean gets a look of disbelief and says "Tired of you? No, so will you call me?"

"I'll call you." He gives me a big smile and pulls me into a hug. He hugs me tight and lets me go slowly.

"Call me." he says walking me out to the porch. I laugh and grab Heavens hand running down the stairs to my car.

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I'm so sorry." My rushes when we walk into the door. She gives Heaven and i a kiss on the forehead. "He's in bed. Love you both and ill see you in the morning." she says rushing out of the door.

Heaven and i get changed into our PJ's and go to watch the rest of the game in the Movie room. I turn to her and she does the same. "So what do you think about Blaze?"

"He's really sweet." she says blushing.

"He is are you excited for tomorrow?"

She nods eagerly "I am but i'm still a little worried." she states and i cock my head confused. "He's huge Flower and it just frightens me."

"He wouldnt hurt you Heaven that boy was struck when he heard your voice. He looked at the phone like it was the last glass of water on earth. Give him a chance and pray about it. Maybe God chose him for you."

"I hope he did because i really do like him." She sighs and then perks up. "Dean?" she asks wiggling her eyebrows.

"I like him but i dont know if he believes in God." i state sadly. "He knows im a christian and a virgin and i told him that i was staying one and he said he was okay with that but if he doesnt believe then what am i gonna do?"

"Ask him and pray about him. You met him for a reason Flower. You didnt stop at that store by chance." she reminds me.

When i go home that night i called Heaven and told her all about it. She has been my best friend since i could remember so of course i would tell her everything first. "I wish God would just tell me."

"Ask and if he wants you to know he'll tell you." she says patting my arm.

"We're going shopping tomorrow for an outfit." i stat and she shakes her head no. "Yes we are Heaven Daddy will give me the card."

"Flower i dont like you buying me things."

"I'm not daddy is." i smirk pulling my phone out. I find Deans number and press talk putting it to my ear before Heaven can say anything."

"What?" his deep voice demands over the phone and i raise my eyebrows frowning.

"Bad mood?" I ask looking at Heaven wide eyed.

"Eva." he says surprised. "I didnt think you would actually call. It's late." he states and i look at the clock.

"It's only one Dean and im not going to school tomorrow." i frown "You thought i wasnt gonna call. Is that why your so angry?"

"YES!" Skyler screams in the background and i giggle.

"Fine." he sighs defeated. "I didnt think you were gonna call."

"Aww you miss me already?" i tease with a huge smile.

"I do." he states and it doesn't surprise me he's really blunt about everything. "The guys miss you to."

"Aww i miss them and my boys?"

"Won't come away from the door." he says sounding a bit annoyed.

"Their so cute." i gush wishing i had a dog. "So i have to ask you something and i don't really want to."

"Okay." he says a little unsure.

I sigh loudly and ask "What do you think about God?"

Deans silent for a few minutes and i look at Heaven pained. She gives me an encouraging look. The other boys talking stops an di hear a door shut in the silence. "I believe he's real but to many thing have happened to me for me to accept it."

"What do you mean believe it?"

Dean sighs and say "That he loves me i guess."

"He odes love you Dean. You go through things for a reason. God has a plan for us and if he didnt think you could handle it he wouldnt put you through it."

"Do you know what i do Evangeline?" he asks and i shake my head an dsay no remembering that he cant hear me. "I'm a criminal Eva. The guys we're all part of a gang." he informs me and im kinda shocked. I knew he did something bad but i didnt know he was in a gang.

"Do you kill people?" i ask and he sighs.

"Eva this isn't a phone conversation."

"Can you just answer my question Dean? Please i want to know." i plead because if he kills people i dont know what i will do. I know your not suppose to judge but he kills people.

"You'll run away from me and i dont want that." he states

"So thats a yes Dean?"

"I have killed people Eva but it was life or death. I dont just go around killing for the fun of it." he rushes to explain. Is it silently thinking about what he just told me. I mean get it together Evie he told you he was a gangster and you think he wouldnt have killed someone. Heaven rubs my back no doubt she herd the conversation. I look over at her and she wips my cheek. I didnt know i was crying. "Evangeline please talk to me. I can't loose you. You're the one thing i believe God sent." he pleads and i wipe my face sniffling.

"Can i call you tomorrow Dean?" i ask hanging up the phone before he can respond.

"Flower." Heaven sighs bringing me into a hug.

"He kills people Heaven." i sob into her chest.

"I know baby but he said he has killed people but it was life or death. He doent kill them for fun sweet pea. The boy really likes you give him a chance. God wouldnt like you judging him before you know his story or just judging him at all."

"I know Heaven but it hurts. I like him so much and hes the first boy i have ever liked but he kills people."

"Flower." She says in a stern tone pulling me away by my shoulders. "Dean isn't a bad guy and you love him i can tell. How you look at him and how your so comfortable with him. How your acting now." she states and i look at her knowing shes telling the truth. "Go pray baby and then sleep on it."