Conviction

12

Chapter 12:

"What do you want to go to college for and why?" Dean asks playing with my hair. I put my head back looking at him with a smile.

"I want to go for Criminal Justice to be a police officer and for business to open a Battered Women's Home called Heaven." I frown because i dont know if Heaven has told Blaze about being beaten yet. If she hasn't then i cant really tell him my story. "I dont know if i can tell you the reason yet." I look down ashamed because i want to tell him everything but some things arnt mine to tell.

"Hey. Hey." Dean says picking me up and putting me in his lap. "It's fine beautiful tell me when you can."

"Its just not my story to tell." I look at him pleadingly and he kisses my forehead.

"I understand Eva and im okay with it."

"What do you want to be?" I ask changing the subject.

Dean smiles brightly. "I always wanted to be a firefighter. When i was younger their was a fire on my street and a girl was stuck in the house. The fire trucks and people came and this one firefighter saved the girl when he was told not to go in because the roof could collapse at any moment. He went in when he was told not to and saved that little girl. I wanted to help people but instead im doing the opposite."

"No your not." I grab his face in between my hands so he will look me in the eyes. "Dean you did what you had to for your family but you can change that. You have to accept who you were before you can ask God to forgive you. If you dont forgive yourself how do you expect him to forgive you?"

"I'll remember that." He mumbles thinking.

"What brought this up?" I ask cocking my head.

"I was thinking about starting college."

A big frown washes over my face but i quickly replace it with a smile. "That'd be awesome Dean. Where would you go?"

Dean chuckles and runs his thumb over my lips. "Dont think i didnt see the frown. I'd go to the community college around the corner untill you graduated and then i would go where ever you want."

Now i smile a real smile and give him a side hug. "I didnt want to go anywhere special. I was thinking about just going to the community college because i love the church and i dont want to leave Mitch while he is so young or my parents. Then when i met you and the guys that made my decision."

"So we're staying here?" He asks and i shrug.

"I mean not for the rest of our lives. Just untill we are finished with college and the i want to move."

"Our?" He asks and i look down messing with my nails.

"If thats what you want."

"Evangeline." He says and i look up at him to see him smiling. "Their is nothing else more in the world i want more than to spend the rest of my life with you."

"I would love that but first you have to get right with God."

"I know baby and i will get right but theirs thing i have to do first."

Getting off of his lap i crass my legs under neath me sitting beside him. "Whats that?"

"You dont need to worry about it." He says looking back at the television.

Starting to get angry i turn my whole body looking at him. "I do have to worry about it Dean because i worry about you. Is it something bad?"

"Evangeline." He warns and i stand grabbing my things. He calls my name but i ignore him walking out of his house. He follows me out and i jump in my car slamming the door shut. "Eva!" He shouts knocking on my window but again i ignore him and start my car pulling out of his drive.