Conviction

7

Chapter 7:

"Can you tell me who all you have killed?" i ask Dean sitting on my legs.

After Blaze and Heaven left he brought me to his room and told me to ask him what ever i wanted about who he is.

He gives me a pained look and asks if im sure. I nod my head and he sighs. "I've killed about six people. I cant lie and say i didnt know what iw as doing because i did. I can say i wish it never happened but it did. This is who i am Eva."

"It's not." i say shaking my head. "You are someone so much better Dean. You just have to find that person."

"I am." he smiles. "When im with you or when i think about you everything seems alright. I havn't done any of my usual things. I hav't drunk or went on deals. Most importantly i havnt had to fight and kill anyone."

I take his hand playing with his fingers. "Can you tll me about your past. Why you joined a gang?"

"Colton and i were raised with nothing. Our mother worked two jobs but we lived in a dump because all of her money went to our father. He was abusive and would beat us but when Colton and i got old enough we threw him out on his a**." he looks up at me and apologise and i nod with a smile. "Mom was so tired of working so me and Colton did what we had to do. "

"We started off selling drugs and then we started fighting for money. When someone would rip us off we would beat them untill they gave us our money. Soon enough we found the guys and became a family. They all had lives like ours and we started our own gang getting money the best way we knew how." he explains and i nod understanding why he did all of this. He did this all for his family so they could eat and have a place to live. This is only making him stronger. Maybe not stronger with God but stronger for the journey God as set for him.

"You may think your life sucks but this is all in God's plan. I know you dont think he loves you but he really does. If he didnt love you you would have been the one dying in those fights if he didnt love you you would be at the point of no return but your not Dean.Your still hear you still wake up in the mornings and you still breath air."

"God brought us together. It wasn't by chance that my car decided to act up and it wasn't by chance that you were at the market that night."

Dean nods his head in agreement. "For some reason he brought me you. I went to the market that night because i felt i had to and then when i saw you walking down the street i knew you were the reason why." He pulls me closer to him holding my chin in his hands. "You wern't afraid of us." he chuckles. "Most girls would have ran the other way but you took off your shoes and got comfortable on the sidewalk." i laugh with him amused.

"My feet hurt." i mumble hitting his shoulder.

"Still you stood there untill your ride came and you talked to us. It amazed me you amaze me."

"And you amaze me." i state running my hand along his scar. It's ugly and jagged like someone cut him. "You know your scar only makes you more beautiful." i state looking at it.

"Boy's arn't beautiful little one. You are beautiful." he rests my palm against his cheek leaving a kiss on it.

I giggle from the tickle on my palm. "Well to me you are beautiful so you'll have to deal with it."

"Fine but only for you." he says with a sigh.

"So where is your mom?" i ask curiously.

"She's alive if thats what your asking." he says and i shake my head horrified. "Just kidding she lives a few blocks away. I'll have to take you to her one day."