Conviction

14

Chapter 14:

Sunday couldnt get here quick enough but i knew one thing and that was prayer. I need strength to get through this journey. I knew it wasnt going to be easy the first time i lay eyes in him but i know i can handle it.

So when i got up this morning i quickly got dressed and made my way to the church by myself. Momma gave me a weird look but when i told her where i was going she encouraged me to go.

Pastor was already there in his office when i arrived. I knock at his door and he looks up smiling at me. "Evangeline come in." I come in and sit in the seat before him. "What can i do for you?"

"I need prayer."

"Can you tell me why?" He asks with a smile and i feel he already knows. Pastors know lots of what their people go through the people dont have to tell him but God tells him.

"Dean the man that came with me last Sunday and Wednesday." I remind and he nods for me to continue. "Well we're dating and its kind of a struggle. I just want you to pray for me because i need strength. I know i can handle it but i need prayer to understand what hes going through. To understand why he does what he does."

"You dont need prayer Evangeline but i will pray for you. God knows you are strong he knows you can handle it. Thats why he chose you for this task. He knows you are strong and that you can handle it. Come on." He says standing. He grabs some praying oil and wipes a cross on my forehead. Taking my hand he says "Father god in the name of Jesus. We come to you asking needing your help your strength. Evangeline wants to understand and to feel what Dean feels. Give her the power and the strength to get through what you have assigned to her. Giver her grace and mercy lord i. Jesus name Amen." I say amen with him and he looks down at me. "I know you cherish your gift because you wouldnt be here but cherish it even more than you already do."

I think about what he said for a second before i go out into the sanctuary to pray.

He wanted me to Cherish Dean more than i already do. I do cherish him I just havn't told him yet.

By the time im finished praying and stand the church is half way full. I go to the booth that Jess and Mary are sitting in. Sliding in beside them i smile. "Hey."

"Doin okay?" Mary asks and i nod smiling.

"Nothing a little prayer cant help."

"Wheres Deanie Poo?" Jess asks making Kissie noises.

"You do know were in church?" I ask and she nods with a so look.

"He should be coming soon. They might have had to get Shena." Jess Mary and i ramble on but ten minutes before service is suppose to start i still dont see Dean and the boys. Pulling out my phone i txt him asking where hes at. He answers back quickly saying Devon wouldnt get up and their about to walk in.

The doors open and they all hurriedly rush to the pew. Dean sits beside me and Blaze beside him. Shena takes a seat infront of me with Colton. "Wheres Heaven?" Blaze asks leaning over to me.

I look in the pew ahead and shes not there. Looking around i dont see her. She never misses a day of church. No matter if she got beat the night before or not.

Starting to panic i stand and do another quick search of the church. "I'll be back." I mumble climbing across everyone to go to my mother. Quickly i sit beside her in the front pew. "Momma have you heard from Heaven or her momma?"

Momma looks around like i did and says "No baby i havnt talked to her since Thursday afternoon." She gets closer to me and whispers. "Do you think something happened to her?"