~Venting/Rants~

10-25-21

Well, In 3rd period our Ela class went to the library and me and my friend Olly would normally just sit and a table by ourselves but today the teacher told us to sit upfront cause their wasn't an open table at the back. So we ended up sitting with my friend, Kat, and the guy I like, Matthew.

I was so nervous. And then he was joking about the stuff we said over messages. He didn't explain anything to our friends, nor did I, so they're pretty confused. And then he whispered to me, "You're bold over text." Bro my face was probably so red, I'm so glad for masks. And he kept saying "2 years", which my friends don't understand but me and him do and I was definitely blushing. And then we were talking and I joking said "I hate you." And Matthew, and my friend, Kat, said no you don't I said, "Yeah I do." He said, "No you don't." Then we were silent for a bit and I said "I can't forget the phrase, 'You know you love me'." And he grinned cause he knew what I meant. And we just talked a bit in general, and I'm honestly still really nervous because something he said he would tell me a few days ago, but I'm still really happy. But now in fourth period It's hard to focus cause he sits right in front of me, facing the wall behind me(we're in rows in a computer lab that face each other) and its so distracting. Like I'm happy about it, but it also makes me nervous. And I'm nervous for lunch and recess as well. And I don't think much will happen in 6th cause he sits really far away from me(we have assigned seats in every class except 5th). So If anything else happens then I'll update I guess :).