~Venting/Rants~

10-13-21

All the things I feel.

All of these confusing emotions, I want to tell someone, but I can't.

My grandma tells me I can talk to her, but when I do she either says I'm to young to feel this way, or to just ignore it.

Both are hurtful, and useless.

When I try talking to my grandpa, he just says I just need to get through it or to try to ignore it.

Which also isn't helpful.

So instead I just vent to my close friends or on here.

Which helps a bit but still.

Maybe I should have went to therapy back in 2019, maybe that would've helped.

But instead I didn't.

So instead I just try to distract myself with other things like music, writing, drawing, friends, my pets, four-wheeler riding, jokes, and school.

I enjoy those things, but their also just to help distract me.

And honestly, it helps.

It's easier for me to ignore my problems and to go around my issues then to face them and deal with them.

People say it's better to face your problems, which may be true but instead I ignore them.

And it helps.