~Venting/Rants~

1-1-23

Its hard to believe that its already 2023.
Shit happened.
Me and Owen hung out friday and god 😭✋
I cant 😭
I like him sm.
Ik I always say that but I do mean it.
Like he literally makes me so happy.
Ik nothing can happen, at least not rn, but still.
I also know how he acts in relationships and I don't wanna deal with that bc ik he cheats and ik he'd do it again but I can't help how I feel.
Also due to some other reasons it wouldn't work out rn, but I literally can't stop thinking about him.
Tbh I've kinda liked him since sometime in September but I was dating his brother at one point then I started liking him and it just couldn't happen.
When I was with Issac in Oct/early nov I didn't feel that way bc I rlly liked him but now things changed. Like right before I broke up with Issac I started catching feelings for Owen again but I broke up with Issac and nothing happened either way.
A lot of other shit happened after early nov and in december but I don't rlly feel like writing abt all that.
But Owen's literally all I can think abt rn.
He makes me so happy.
Ik hes not good in relationships but he was good with Destiny(she was his first love tho) but like maybe it could work.
Rn I don't think it could work but ik if he wanted to try I would, regardless of knowing what would probably happen.
I feel like maybe things could work in the future but I doubt it'll happen.
But like I could be such a good gf to him.
I would always be there for him, I'd spoil him, always make time for him, try to make plans with him anytime I can, etc.
I just wanna make him happy tbh.