darling

Im out.

I know what you told your friends about.
You just wait until dad gets home.

I'm sitting in the front office of my school. I'm panicking. It's the only feeling I know right now. How did she find out? Nobody could have told her. It was just AJ, Kate and...

Brittany...

A sinking feeling settled upon me like sand settling on the ocean floor. In the back of my mind always lurked the idea that she wasn't a person who could be trusted. Was it her calculating eyes? How it looked like she always had something to use against you? It was something. I should've seen at least something. A sign that would've should've me to distance myself from her. Why did I have to notice now? Now of all times?

Brittany told my mom? How? Does she even have her number? Well from the surprise birthday. But I don't understand? I wanted to be the person to tell them. I didn't want them to find out this way. I wasn't ready to tell them. Why would she tell them?

"Aleah, your mom is here. " said the kind office lady. When I heard her speak my heart sank, I was so scared of my mother. The car ride home would be awkward and I really don't want to deal with that.

I dragged my feet out to the car where I saw my mom was waiting. She looked empty but filled with emotions at the same time. I got in the car and she started the engine and we were on our way. She didn't say a word for the whole 15 minute drive home. I think at one point I heard her crying. Crying? Why is she crying? I'm just gay. It's not like they lost me as their daughter, right? They still love me right? Do they still appreciate me? Do they care?

"Go to the table, dad will be there and your stuff," mom said.

!TW: MENTALLY ABUSE AND HOMOPHOBIC!

"I want you out of this house you disgusting pig." My dad said with harsh words. I feel the tears starting to roll down my face.

"But- but I'm your daughter."

"Not anymore," said dad. I became over filled with emotions. I felt infuriated but so incredibly heartbroken.

"What do you mean not a-anymore. We will always be a family, ri-right? I will always love y-you. Just because of who I- I love doesn't mean you have to not love me anymore," I said as each word my heart breaks more and more.

He threw my stuff outside. I heard something break. I don't even know what they packed. I don't have money. I can't live on my own. What do I do? I don't have anything. Food. Water. Love? What will happen to me? Where will I sleep? Where do I go?

"I hate you. Get out of my house! NOW!" I hear my sister Cameron crying from upstairs and my mom is hiding behind the wall. Cameron. I love Cameron. What does she think of me? I love her. I miss her.

"NOW!"

!TW OVER!

I run out of the house while grabbing my bags. Running as far as I can away from this family. They betrayed me. I find a small bench on the outskirts of town.  I put my bags under the bench but then I hear something crinkle in my bag. I decided to check out what it is and also I haven't looked to see what is even in my bags. The first thing I see is a letter, I set it aside. Chips, Gatorade, pen, change, portable charger, clothes, blanket, pillow, hair and skin products, and money. Lots of money. It doesn't look like my parents packed this, it looks like Cameron did.

I grabbed the letter and carefully opened it.

I love you. I don't want you to ever forget that. You still have my number so please keep in touch. I'm so sorry.

Love, your big sister, Cameron