The College JJ Series

it all comes together

REQUESTED: @ihatereadingXD asked for JJ and the reader on a kiss cam at a sporting event, and this chapter idea immediately popped into my head

Summary: It's the morning after the theme party and your first time with JJ; you come to terms with what happened and what it means moving forward; John B and Pope find out about you and JJ in a very public way

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You wake up to a bright bedroom. Your curtains were wide open from where you hadn't even thought to close them last night when you got home. The bed next to you is empty. You weren't sure what that meant.

Last night, you and JJ had crossed the line of friendship, and it had been everything you ever dreamed of and more, but his absence this morning had you questioning everything. What you had mistaken for reciprocated feelings was simply just a drunken hookup, apparently.

The sting of this realization weighed on your chest, and, coupled with the throbbing headache you had noticed the second you opened your eyes, it had you feeling like death warmed over. You drag yourself out of bed and throw on some clothes, then zombie walk your way to your kitchen for some headache medicine and a glass of water. You sit down at your table, both hands clutching the glass after chugging half of it down to take the pills.

You contemplate your life choices at this point, reflecting on last night. JJ had been flirty and touchy, he'd said and did all the right things, all to lure you into bed for sex, and you had fallen for it. You felt dumb, and used, and you didn't know how to proceed.

You hear a key jam into your lock, and you look up from the table to see JJ opening the door, a Bojangles bag balanced on top of a drink carrier with two cups in it in hand. He has two straws clutched between his teeth. He drops his keys on the table by the door and grabs the straws from his mouth. "Hey, you're up," he says, walking over to the table to join you.

You watch silently as he opens the bag and sets a breakfast sandwich and a container of bo rounds in front of you, then grabs a drink from the carrier and places a straw on top. He pulls a second identical meal from the bag and sits down across from you.

"You got me Bojangles," you say, looking at what's in front of you.

"Cajun chicken biscuit, bo rounds, and a coke," he says. "I told you last night I'd get you Bojangles."

That changes your initial perspective. You thought he'd woken up early and jetted, but now you see it was because he promised you breakfast. You remembered pouting over the fact they were closed, despite it being nearly 2:00 am. "Thanks, J," you say softly.

"Speaking of last night..." he trails off and looks up from his food. "Um, can we talk about it?"

"I need to eat first," you respond, and he nods.

"Fair."

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After you eat in silence across from each other, your headache has diminished significantly, and you're feeling a lot better overall, but your stomach rolls with nerves as the two of you move to the couch to talk. You lean your side against the back cushions, your chin propped on your knee, eyeing JJ anxiously.

JJ is quiet, picking at a piece of fuzz on the throw pillow in front of him. He takes a deep breath and lets it out. "So, we slept together last night."

"Yeah, I remember," you reply, and he shakes his head.

"No, I know that, I—well, I guess I'm just wondering what it meant?"

"That depends on you," you say, and he gives you a confused look.

"I don't understand."

You sigh. "Did you just want to fuck me, or do you actually have feelings for me?"