Take Me 2

Chapter [17]

The songs for this chapter are:

-Renegades: X Ambassadors

-I'd Love to Change the World: Jetta (Matstubs Remix)

-Roller Coaster: Bleachers

Three and a Half Years Earlier

Demi's POV

Dear Diary,
February 16th

There's this boy.

There's this boy that I can't stop thinking about. He makes me crazy.

Like literally crazy. I find myself saying things he does, doing things he does and even ditching classes to be with him.

I am only fourteen and yet I find myself wondering what has this brown haired boy done to me?

His name is Justin Bieber, and I'm falling in love with him.

No, I am in love with him.

It's been only a couple weeks, nowhere near as long as it should be, but I am in love with this sophomore in my high school even though he sometimes speaks of my friend.

I know Nichole and Justin had a past. A dark past that sometimes when I lay with Justin he'll hold my hand and accidentally say her name.

It hurts to know that while he is all I think about he still remembers Nichole.

Nichole is my best friend, she always has been and she always will be. But every time Justin says her name on accident or when I ask him, a little fire elites where she is in my heart.

Is it possible to want to hate my best friend for loving the same guy I love?

Well, he was her's first, but now he's mine.

~Demi

Dear Diary,
February 28th

I read this today in a book and I can't stop repeating these words over and over in my mind, "Is there ever a bad side to yourself you wish would hide, or perhaps just go away? Is there a side to you that scares yourself? Is there a side you wish never to show anyone?"

I am not scared of myself or for myself, but I am afraid for Justin.

Finding those words in a book that I thought was ordinary turned out to be the same words written on a piece of paper in Justin's room.

The paper was crumbled and I never would have found it unless we had played a game with Asher.

Asher is Justin's little brother that I adore even though most times he stays away from me.

Nichole has never met Asher and I plan to keep it that way. It makes me feel closer to Justin in a way because I know his family in a way Nichole never will.

His mother Pattie, is sweet, his father Jeremy is always working and Asher keeps to himself in a grown up sort of way.

Justin doesn't speak much of him and I have just figured they aren't as close as he makes them out to be.

Why would Justin have that written down?

I know there are secrets he keeps, and I keep my own, but I am starting to become afraid of my own boyfriend.

Is that even possible?

Just entries ago I was madly in love with him, now I am afraid of him.