The Orc With A Heart

Chapter 24: Halfway There

It was freezing out, if I was not going to lie to my self, as I did in fact start to regret the way that I was feeling when ever it was that we had been at Lorgans place, as I knew that at least at had been warm in there. Now this was even worse than both, as at least I had a pillow and a blanket to lay on, as now I had neither. It had just seemed to get worse and worse for me over the last few months, as to just where it was that I had been sleeping.
Though, if I was not going to lie to my self either, I was kind of getting used to it at this point, as it really did not bother me at all any more. I had still managed to get some decent sleep, besides the first few days, do to the fact that I was so tired by the time it even came to that time for me to fall asleep, all at the exact same time as well, so I rarely did wake up in the night, and I rarely rolled around in my sleep at the exact same time too.
It still did not mean that it was comfortable for me though, and it still did not mean that I did not wake up and feel nice and refreshed every day, as I knew that I still woke up, and that I still felt worn out as all hell none the less, all at the exact same time too. It just so happened that it seemed to be getting colder and colder the more that we went, every single day, as I really did wish that I had more of the human clothes with me.
Sadly I had decided to toss them out, due to the fact that they were getting nasty, and they were getting disgusting, as it was far too nasty for even me to be wearing at this point, as I felt like I would rather wear the orc clothing over the human clothing. I was not going to lie to my self, as nice as the human clothing was, for just the feel on your body, and how it looked, I knew that the orc clothing lasted a fair bit longer than the human clothing seemed to last.
I knew that it was all besides the point how ever, as I was not all too sure as to just why it was that I had my mind, and I had my focus on the clothes that I was wearing right at this very moment in time any ways. I knew that today had not been as hard of a day for us as the last few ones had, as I knew that we had got a very late start to our day, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
I now did not feel all too worn out, as I was now starting to realize as to just how hard it even was for me to be able to fall asleep in the first place, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I had quite a bit of some much needed good and extra long sleep, just the day before, all at the exact same time too, none the less. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I then got my mind off of those thoughts as well, how ever, as I knew that if I did not get some sleep right now, than it would mean that I would get back in to the same process as I had been before, which was of course the fact that I knew that I was going to be worn out.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I then all of the sudden shook my head, all at the exact same time too, as I did my best to try to relax my self, and try to calm my self down, all at once, as I knew that fairly soon from now, I was going to have to wake up again, and I did not want to be worn out another day. I closed my eyes, and I rolled around, trying to find at least a semi bit of a comfortable spot for me to lay on, and try to fall asleep at, all at the exact same time too.
As I began to move around, and I began to roll around, I then finally got my self in a bit of a some what comfortable spot, if you wanted to call it that. It was at least a spot that I knew would be good enough for me to fall asleep. As I kept my eyes closed, I then let my mind free, as I was not all too sure as to just how much longer it was that it took me to fall asleep after I had done as such a thing, but I did in fact know that at some point in that process, I did in fact fall asleep.

I woke up, and I saw that I was not in the same place that I had slept at, at all, as I was quite a bit worried as to the fact that I might have slept walked, and that I might have walked away from the place that I had fallen asleep at, as I knew that it was a very good possibility right now, none the less, as I knew that it was quite a bit common for me to do such a thing as that. I began to start to look around, to make sure that I was not too far away, but as I did in fact look around, it just seemed like it was too blurry for me to see any thing at all.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as that still did not seem like it was going to be able to work, as I felt like there was some thing else that I could do instead to get my eyes focused on just where it was that I was at right now, which was of course the fact that I closed my eyes for just a few moments. I breathed in a bit to my self, as I smelt quite a bit of a nice scent if I was not going to lie to my self, which seemed to be a little bit strange for these orc lands.
As I then all of the sudden opened my eyes once again, I then noticed that just as I had thought, I was not in fact in the place that I had fallen asleep at in the very first place any ways. It did not take me all too long to realize that, as it was for many different reasons. I knew that I must have walked for ever the night before, as I was not near any trees at all right now, like we had been at, the night before now.
Not only that, but I began to start to realize, all at once, that there was a lot of noise going on all around me, right at this very moment in time, as it was clear that there were other people that were with me right now as well. I was a little bit worried at first, as I then began to start to turn my head around, as I saw that we were in an orc city, like we had been a few of the days that we had gone out to get some food.
This one was a lot different than the most of them were though, as I saw that the buildings were a lot nicer, and also the fact that the people that I saw that were around me right now, were in fact wearing a lot nicer things, all at the exact same time as well. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that was going on right at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways.
Had we got found by the orc king, and had we been taken in? My mother had told me that the orc kings city was quite a beautiful place, but she had told me to not let it fool me, as she had said that it was full of 'dirty people'. I was not all too sure as to just what it was that she had meant by that at all how ever, as it seemed like all of the orcs that I had met, were dirty people.
I shook off all of those thoughts all at once how ever, as I heard some noise from right beside me, all at the exact same time as well, which all of the sudden seemed to get my attention on to it, and on to just what it was that was even going on right now, in the very first place any ways, as I then all of the sudden turned my head over to where the noise was coming from, once again, none the less.
I then all of the sudden noticed that I was at the front door of a home right now, and I saw that the front door was opening as well, as I was a little bit surprised, but also a little bit lost by it, as I stared at the front of the door, as I saw that it was slowly beginning to open, all at the exact same time too. As the door opened, I saw that very much to my surprise, that it was Lorgan who was at the front door.
Now I really was starting to get a little bit worried, as to the fact that I knew that we were not at all at Lorgan's place at all right at this very moment in time, as I had remembered that his place was a nasty place. It got me on to the thoughts, and also the subject that my mind had been at before, which was of course the fact that I had been a little bit worried that we had been caught by the orc king.
It sure as hell seemed like we had got set up in to a trap, as I was not all too sure as to just how it was that I had got here if I was not going to lie to my self, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that I did not remember waking up, and being attacked, though I felt like I could have been knocked unconscious before it was that I had even woken my self up in to a conscious state, all at the exact same time as well, never the less, as it all just felt like it was quite a bit crazy to me.
Though as I looked around me once again how ever, I noticed that I did not see any orc soldiers around me, as I was not all too sure to just what it was that was going on right at this very moment in time, if I was not going to lie to my self, as this all seemed to feel quite a bit crazy to me, as none of this seemed to be real at all to me either. Perhaps it was not real, as I knew that there had been a lot of stuff that I had seen as of late that I had thought was real, but was not.
The face of Lorgan was in fact real how ever, as I then all of the sudden turned my head over to him, all at once, as I looked at him right in to his face, as he seemed to have a big smile on his face, all at once. At first I was a little bit scared for the smile, as I wondered if he had been a part of the trap, but I noticed that the smile that he had on his face was not an evil smile at all, nor did it seem to have any sort of dark intent on his face at all either.
I looked at his face for a few more moments, as I was a little bit confused about his face, as I knew that some thing was not right at all on his face at all, though I felt like I just could not figure out as to just what it was that was in fact wrong with it. As I stared at him for a few moments, I then all of the sudden saw him nod, and as soon as I had seen him nod, that is when I noticed what was wrong with his face, all at once.
The scars that he had all over him, were now all of the sudden gone, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that when I had last seen him never the less, he had a lot of scars on his face, but not just that, as I remembered that the last time I had seen him too, I also did in fact remember him looking a lot younger than it seemed like he was looking right at this very moment in time as well, than it had been the last time I had seen him.
I tried to think on it for a little bit longer, which seemed to be a little bit hard for 2 different reasons, as one of those reasons was the fact that I knew that I was stupid, and that I knew that I was quite a bit of the idiot, none the less. The other reason that I felt like I could not think on what it was that was wrong, was the fact that some thing did in fact seem to be a little bit wrong with my mind, and my thoughts right now, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that it could be.
I just seemed to sit there for a little while longer, until the smile then all of the sudden seemed to go away from the face of Lorgan, as he seemed to dip his head a little bit low to the ground, as he then began to start to speak up all at the exact same time as well. Based off of the tone of his voice too, it seemed like he had a different accent, and also the fact that I knew that he was not speaking to me at all right now.
Who was it that he was speaking to right at this very moment in time then? I was not all too sure, as I was starting to wonder if this was not Lorgan at all, but it was some one altogether completely different than him, than just seemed to be a little bit similar looking. I shook off all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time too how ever, as I got my mind off of all of that, and I got my mind on the fact that he was in fact speaking right at this very moment in time any ways, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that he had to say in the very first place any ways.
"Libsy! Its so good to see you again! Why have you brought a baby with you, I didn't know you were pregnant, but then again, it has been a while..." He said to the person that I was standing right beside apparently right now, that I could not see at all, as I tried to turn my head over to it, as I knew that it was supposed to be my mother, based off of the fact that I had just heard him say her name, but I sadly could not turn my head over in the direction that he was looking right now.
I was not all too sure as to just why it was that it was in fact the case, though based off of the fact as to just what it was that the orc had said, I did in fact assume that the orc was in fact Lorgan, though it seemed like he had some how all of the sudden managed to get a lot younger. Also the fact that my mother was with me right now apparently, seemed to prove that it was the case as well, all at once, never the less.
Though I could not see my mother to prove that it was the case, I also knew that no one else had her name at all, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden shook my head, doing my best to shake off all of those thoughts from my head all at once. What I was more surprised with, and also the fact that I was more concerned with, was the fact that Lorgan had said that he had not seen her in for ever, even though we had seen him a few weeks before now.
Also the fact that he had said that my mother was pregnant none the less, as that did not seem to make all too much sense to me either, as I was fairly certain that she had not been pregnant, either. Unless some how orcs when they were pregnant, did not have their bellies grow big, and apparently orcs also were able to reproduce insanely fast, all at the exact same time too. It just did not seem to make all too much sense at all to me, as to just what it was that was going on right now, right at this very moment in time.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, as I was not all too sure about any of this, as it all seemed to feel quite a bit strange to me, as I was starting to think that my mother might have actually been trying to get me in to a trap all of this time, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times. Maybe that was why it was that I felt so strange, and why it was that I did not remember as to just how it was that had happened up to this point, and how it was that I had got here in the very first place any ways. For all that I knew, she could have drugged me with some thing that she put in my drink.
I really did not want to think that way about her again, as I really felt like she had been gaining my trust over the last few weeks that we had been together, and that we had gone on this journey, but at the exact same time too, I kind of felt like it was a bit hard, due to the fact of all that was going on right at this very moment in time, as that was what it was that just did not seem to make sense to me, as it just did not seem to be some thing my small brain could seem to comprehend.
I sighed a bit to my self once again, as I was not all too sure as to just what else it was that I should do right now. I was clearly a bit woozy, as for all that I knew, that could be due to the fact of the drugs that I was on, as for all that I knew, I could be seeing things. But could I really be seeing such a nice house that Lorgan was living at right now? I was not all too sure if I knew the answer to that question, as a lot of this was scaring me quite a bit, if I was going to be for real, and I was going to be completely, and perfectly honest with my self none the less.
I did my best to just try to stay calm, and I tried my best to keep it cool, as I just seemed to stare at Lorgan for just a little bit longer, though it did not seem like his eyes were on me at all right now, as it seemed to be quite a bit clear to me right now, that his eyes were on my mother. As much as she did not want to believe it, and as much as I was sure she wanted to deny it, it was clear to me that Lorgan was in love with my mother.
I felt a bit bad for him, as it was clear that my mother did not feel the same way back to him how ever. I could tell that Lorgan was a good orc, and very much to my surprise, as it had seemed to be my entire life, how all of the humans had told me, that all of the orcs were disgusting, ruthless, and that they were all killers, that just did not seem to be the case at all, from just what it was that I had clearly seen so far from all of the orcs.
While, a lot of them might be disgusting to me, they really did not seem to be as evil as I had been told that they were, as it made me feel even more sick now, knowing that I had to witness the fact that I had watched an entire orc village get mauled in front of my eyes, and I had not thought twice about it, as I was sure that there were plenty of innocent children that were in side, that did not have a single clue as to just what it was that had been going on.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I then got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at once, as I did my best to try to get my focus instead on the fact that I now all of the sudden, finally, heard the voice of my mother, as she then began to start to speak back up to Lorgan, as it seemed to soothe me, just as to the fact that I heard the voice of my mother, as I was scared, and I was not all too sure as to just what it was that had been going on before now.
I blinked my eyes a few times, once again, as I did my best to try to turn my head to her, but I once again failed to be able to do as such a thing, as it seemed like I was stuck with what ever it was that was going on right at this very moment in time, and where ever it was that I was even stuck at right now, as well. I kind of just gave up on it all, as I just then began to start to listen as to just what it was that my mother even had to say to in the very first place any ways, none the less.
"Yes... I'm sorry Lorgan... I will tell you all about it, I just need a place to refuge for the night... I also have to warn you, that if you let me in, you will not be able to live here any more, so you better make your decision now..." She said back to Lorgan, as she was clearly explaining as to just what it was that was going on right now, and just what it was that she was doing to him as well, though I still could not figure out what was going on right now, for the life of me none the less.
I breathed in quite a bit heavily to my self, all at once, which did not seem to feel all too heavy to me, if I was not going to lie to my self, as I did in fact, I again, get my mind, and my focus off of all of those thoughts, as I got my focus on some thing different than that instead, which was the fact that I got my eyes back on to Lorgan, as I saw that he was moving around just a bit all of the sudden.
The fact that he was such a big orc, just scared me to even move, as it felt like if he was to even get near me, much less fall on me, it could easily crush my skull, as I shivered a bit at the thought of all of that, all at once, too. I did my best to try not to think on that, as I knew that as far as I had seen, and as much as I had learned from Lorgan so far, was that, as big as the orc was, he was not as scary and dangerous as you might think he was.
That was not saying that it was due to the fact that he was just all fake. It was simply due to the fact that he was actually a nice and sweet orc, which felt a bit strange for me to say that about any orc none the less, as I had been told as to just how it was that they all were my entire life, as it kind of made me feel a bit weird to be saying any thing good at all about an orc. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I once again got my focus off of all of that, just as I had done last time.
I got my focus on the fact that I had in fact of course, seen Lorgan moving, though as I looked over at him, I did in fact notice that he was not moving in towards me or my mother at all, as he was doing the opposite of all of that, as I saw that he was moving backwards, as it was clear that he was trying to let us know, and that he was trying to let us in to his new, and very nice home that he all of the sudden lived in now, all at the exact same time as well.
It was clear that he had heard what it was that my mother had said to him, as it was clear to me that my mother and I were in danger right now, all at the exact same time too, as it was also clear to me, none the less, that Lorgan was so in love with my mother, that he did not care as to the fact that he was going to lose his home. It just did not make all too much sense to me, as to just why it was that he wanted to lose his home, when he had just got such a new and nice home compared to his last one, none the less.
I was not all too sure, as it was all quite a bit strange to me, if I was going to be for real with my self, too, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of those thoughts as well, as I got my focus on the thoughts instead, which of course had to do with the fact that I knew that some thing was going on right now that was quite a bit strange. I looked at Lorgan, as I saw that he had quite a bit of a blank look on his face, as I knew that really did not tell me all too much, all at the exact same time as well, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at once.
I got my focus instead, on the fact that I now all of the sudden realized that me and my mother were moving, almost as if she was carrying me, which did not seem to make all too much sense to me either, as to just how it was that it was the case, in the very first place any ways, as I knew that I was far too big of an orc for my mother to be able to move, none the less, as I was quite a bit worried as to just what it was that could be going on with me.
As we began to start to move in to the place that Lorgan now lived in, I saw that Lorgan headed past us, as it was clear that he was going over to the door, as it was clear that he was trying to close it, all at the exact same time too, as it was clear that he did not want to get caught just yet, after what it was that my mother had even said to him in the very first place any ways. I was still a little bit lost by that, none the less, if I was going to be for real with my self, as I still did not have a single clue as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways.
I then began to turn my head over to the direction that I saw Lorgan was going to, which was of course, the front door, as this time, when I turned my head over in that direction, I actually was able to see my mother. Whilst the reason that I had turned my head in that direction, was simply due to the fact that I was going to go and watch Lorgan close the door, the fact that I now saw my mother, got my mind, and my focus, as well as my eyes off of all that had to do with Lorgan.
I got my eyes on my mother instead, who I saw had quite a bit of a worried, as well as quite a bit of some look of some fear on her face, all at the exact same time too, as I was quite a bit worried for my mother, if I was going to be for real with my self, and I was going to be completely honest with my self, all at once, as I then once again breathed in a bit to my self, just as I had done the last few times.
Though, some thing did in fact seem to be odd, just based off of the look that I saw on her face. No... Actually, it was not the look that I saw on her face that was in fact odd to me. It was just the fact that her face, straight up, was not normal at all. My mother, the last time that I had seen her, which was last night of course, had been quite a bit of a beautiful orc. But the orc that was my mother, that I saw in front of my eyes right now, was even more beautiful to me, none the less.
I was quite a bit lost by it, as well as the fact that I was a bit shocked by it to, as it just did not seem to make all too much sense to me, as to just what it was that was even going on right now in the very first place any ways. I would say that the orc that I was looking at right at this very moment in time, could not be my mother, as I did not see the old wrinkles and creases that I had seen on her face before, but it was clear to me that this orc that I saw right now, was in fact my mother.
She just seemed to be a lot younger than I was used to. It was really confusing me, as it seemed like I had managed to time travel, back in to the past some how, now that I was starting to get a grasp on just what it was that was going on right at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways. If only I was not so stupid, and I could figure out just what it was that was even going on right now any ways.
There was also the fact that I was not able to move around, and that I was not able to speak, as I knew that had some thing to do with it to. That was when it all of the sudden started to hit me, all at the exact same time as well, as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time any ways, as I all of the sudden started to get it. I was a baby... This was some how a memory of when I was a baby, that I was having.
But how was it that I had got her in the very first place any ways? I was not all too sure if I knew that answer to that at all, if I was going to be for real, and I was going to be completely honest with my self, as it felt quite a bit strange to me none the less. Where was I at right at this very moment in time? The more that I began to think on it, the more that it all of the sudden started to grow dark in the room, as I was beginning to notice, none the less, as I then got my mind and my focus on my eyes, once again.
It was too late for all of that how ever, sadly enough for me, as I now all of the sudden began to realize that I was now fully dark, and that there was nothing at all that I could do now to stop as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time any ways, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, and I got my mind and my focus off of all of that, as it all just seemed to go away from me, all at once, as well.