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peggy - it's always been him, hasn't it?

a/n: angst angst angst angst LOLOLOL

You always thought you and Peggy would end up together. turns out you read the signs wrong. 

2nd person pov:

Ever since a very young age you and Peggy have been inseparable, rather the closest of best friends. Peggy's mother always questioned if you too were "a couple" because you guys flirted on countless occasions. But, it wasn't until you were about 19 did you realise you had feelings for the brown eyed girl.

You stayed quiet and ignored your feelings because, well, it was 1942 and women weren't respected therefore being a lesbian wasn't "normal" at this time. Being apart of LGBT+ at all was straight up "forbidden" and "disgusting". You also shoved them away because you just thought she would never feel the same. 

You and Peggy had very similar goals, you both joined the army. Peggy was an air force officer, and you were a sergeant major. Being at higher level was shocking, and a lot of men weren't impressed, outraged, but to be honest they never really said what they truly thought because hey were afraid of loosing their job and they were afraid of you.

Peggy loved that about you. She loved how you got into a higher position and she was extremely proud of the stand you were making.  Over than the horrible remarks of the war, life was working out for the both of you. That was until "Captain America". It was appalling to the public but now America had a hero. 

You despised Steve Rogers. 

You didn't think you were jealous until he had gotten the serum. 

He wasn't this short skinny kid from Brooklyn, he had huge muscles, blonde hair, blue eyes, super speed, super strength, and ALL the ladies fell for him. He is America's hero. 

What really set you off was the amount of time they spent together, at first you ignored it. Just Peggy being herself, helping out the underdog. But after he became an icon, you started to worry. Less of her time was spent with you, and more with Steve. She had introduced you to Steve before but it was never a mutual liking between the both. 

After saving Bucky Barnes, Steve's best friend, You went to the bar with Peggy for a celebration. At first you met up with a fellow general then when you spotted Peggy across the room with a gorgeous red dress, that fit her body just right, you couldn't keep your eyes off her. Her smile and eyes practically glowing up the room, you envied her. 

You wanted to confess so badly but you just couldn't, and it breaks your heart. It hurts to see her talk to other men, to see her go on dates. It hurt watching her talk to Steve. 

Peggy had felt someone staring so she turned towards the direction seeing your e/c eyes looking lovingly at her. But once their eyes locked you had looked door at your drink, chugged it, then walked away from her sight. 

You wore (picture above), You didn't really care about your appearance considering you only cared about what Peggy thought, not some crusty man. The truth was, you're a very attractive woman, you have enrapturing e/c eyes, breathtaking smile, and a personality like no other. Men fall at your feet constantly, but you're too wrapped up with Peggy to even realise. It;s not that you were gay, nor straight, you fell in love with who you fell in love with. 

After about 42 ish minutes you had heard your name being called from across the room. That voice, that soothes you on countless occasions saying your  name.  Snapping out of it, you turned around to face her to see her with Steve and Bucky. Inside your heart dropped but you kept a slight smile on you face as you made your way over.

"Steve you've met Y/n, but Sargent Barnes you have not." Peggy spoke gesturing a hand to the two. Standing beside Peggy you never looked at Steve and just looked towards Bucky. "Arnold speaks a lot of you." You lightly chuckle to Bucky, "Good things I hope." He replies and you and him share a quick chuckle. "And you Steve, thinking holding up for you in the Captain world?" You question rather smugly. You tried hard to not be rude but you couldn't help it. 

He gave a nervous smile, "It's alright, definitely weird then my life has been, and it's rough having so much pressure on you." "Well no need to worry, you're a natural born leader." Peggy added. "Hm." You stated turning back to Bucky, "And you? After being rescued I assume you and Rogers have been busy." You question, "Yes. Lot's of training and mission but I'm glad to see him in uniform." (wdym by that.... HBKHSSJ SRY) 

You just give him a nod and fogged smile. It seemed Peggy and Steve were in their own conversation leaving just you and Bucky. It was like that for most of the night, and you had actually learned quite a lot about the Sargent. Over the span of many weeks you guys had actually become friends and shared very many interests.  

It was too bad he had passed on. Steve was devastated, Peggy comforted him completely leaving you to grieve on your own. You hated how Peggy always chose him over you. 

It was as if Howard Stark was her best friend, Steve was her practical boyfriend, and you were just a forgotten memory fighting to be remembered in her mind. At many point in time you had attempted to spend time with her but she ignored you. It shocked you one day....

"Jesus Christ Y/n would you stop! I'm so caught up in my life I don't need you nagging at me to talk or go for a drink every 5 seconds. I'm an independent woman and I don't need my annoying 'best friend' around me anymore.". It broke your heart, is was completely disrespectful of her to do so and you decided to not cause a fight and just walk away. Peggy had immediately regretted her words but there was nothing to do about it now.

Peggy remained in the light with Captain America. Everything seemed like a fantasy come to life until Steve had sacrificed his life. She hadn't known where Stark had gone, Steve was gone, and she had pushed away the one person who got her. She was alone. But she has only herself to blame. 

Y/n had just wished that she could've told Peggy about her feelings, it could've been mutual. You had often thought what it would be, would things be different. But it didn't matter. 

Because even after he death, and Steve was alive, he went back in time for her. Spent his whole life dreading one single kiss. Wasn't one kiss enough for him? It would've been just enough for you. 

Like I said, it wouldn't matter. Because It's always been him, hasn't it?

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heyyy wassup i hope you enjoyed this, sry this kind of sad but WHATEVER....bye maybe ill update later :)