Always & Forever

Chapter 3

Lana POV

I woke up as Sean climbed onto the bed. It was late, really late. When he didn't move over and cuddle up to me I turned over and opened my eyes. He was laying flat on his back on top of the sheets, staring up at the ceiling. 

"Babe, you need sleep" I whispered. 

He didn't respond in any way, didn't move, didn't say anything, just simply stared at the ceiling. 

"Maybe she's right" he said after a few minutes of silence and I knew exactly what he was talking about. 

"She's not" I assured him, leaning on my elbow now. 

"But maybe she is," he responded quickly. "Maybe I'm not meant to be a father, I'm not sure I'm a very good one as it is." 

I flipped the blankets down and kicked my leg over. It landed on the other side of his leg, I slipped my hands so they were on either side of his head and hovered over him, looking him in the eyes . "Don't ever say that again. That isn't true. You are an amazing father. Got it?" 

Before he could respond I leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on his lips, he kissed me back and gently moved us so I wasn't leaning over him anymore, but was on my back now, laying back on my side. 

When he pulled away he deflated a bit and said "Things just seem to keep getting in the way" 

"What do you mean? What's in the way now?" I asked, suddenly very nervous. 

"Well with Amada it was moving to England," he began then stopped, took a deep breath, and continued again "We got our scripts today, while you were out with Antoinette" 

"Okay?" I was very confused what that had to do with anything. 

"Episode 512" he started again. I knew that was the next script coming out, we weren't filming it until the early spring though. "My last episode" he finished. 

My heart hammered hard in my chest. No. I must have heard him wrong. They can't do that. What about Regina? What about me? 

"What?" I asked in a choked whisper as tears filled my eyes. 

"Darling, breathe" he reminded me, cupping my face. 

"They can't do that. He's the love of her life. She redeemed herself. She's good. Why do they need to continue tearing her apart? And me? I don't want you to leave. Oh, please don't leave me Sean." I cried. I couldn't stop the tears from falling down my face and I knew that even if I wasn't pregnant I would've cried. 

"I'm not leaving you Lana" he said, "I love you and I'm not missing out on this, not again. I promise you, I won't leave" 

He placed a hand on my bulging stomach as I continued sobbing. 

He laid down again and took me in his arms, I just cried into his chest until I fell asleep again. 

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I slept in this morning, and have laid in bed a while, dreading getting up. I know my eyes will be puffy from crying last night and am quite content where I am. Well, I was content with it, until Sean got up, then there was no use laying in bed alone. 

So, I got up and had a shower, then got ready for the day, put some makeup on to try and cover the redness surrounding my eyes and got dressed. 

Before I knew it we were heading over to my moms house. I'm always the first one to arrive and I help my mom with everything I can before everyone else comes. Although today I am nervous, and I'm not really sure why. I know she will be excited.