𝑰𝑴𝑨𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑬𝑺 - måneskin

ethan torchio

"Giving birth, but Ethan isn't there"

(Your name is Nina)

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"Awh she kicked, wanna feel?", both my hands are covering my stomach, to feel my little girl moving. Giorgia her hand touch my stomach and my daughter kicks again. "That's so sweet, how are you feeling?". I sigh because that's the tenth time Giorgia asked that today. My boyfriend Ethan and his band members Damiano, Victoria and Thomas were on tour and on their way home right now. Since I'm about to give birth to our daughter. "Gio I'm fine, seriously", I said it, and it's true, I'm feeling. I mean I'm 42 weeks pregnant, and I have the feeling she is coming very soon, but still I'm feeling okay.

I massage my stomach and sing a song for my daughter, to give her the sign that I'm ready to meet her. Giorgia went to the shop and Ethan will call me in a minute. When Ethan found out I was pregnant he was happier than I was, since I hated it. I never wanted kids, until the first echoes, she is so tiny and I just want to meet her. My phone buzzes twice and I pick up, to hear my boyfriends voice. "Hey neen how are you?". He asks and sounds worried. My legs walk clumsy towards the kitchen to drink something. "I'm fine, she kicks all the time, but I think that's good.", I say. To be honest, when I walk the painful feeling in my back is getting a little heavier, but I don't wanna make him concerned.

"Babe are you, because it seems like you have pain", in the background I hear Victoria gasping and saying something. "Ethan I'm fine!", I snapped, but I didn't wanted to. "Okay sorry for being worried, bye Nina", he hang up the phone, leaving me there, alone in the kitchen with no one to talk to. The not pleasure feeling in my back got heavier and I take grip on a chair, waiting for Giorgia, and most, for Ethan to come home. Our little girl will fly into this world, maybe today, maybe tomorrow.

"Nina, ethan called and said you're in pain", with bags filled with milk, eggs and more food. "To be honest, it doesn't feel very well", with one hand on my stomach, and one on the chair, I see Giorgia staring scared in my eyes. She never excepted this to happen now, while Ethan wasn't here. "We have to get you to the hospital". She feels my stomach, searching for something professional to say, but she can't come up with something. "No no I'm fin-", the feeling turns into pain and makes me stop talking. "Nina! You are giving birth, think about you and the baby, we go to the hospital". She is right, but I want Ethan to be here. "Not without Ethan, I need him with me", I sob, quietly. "I know, but now I'm here and we have to go"

"Gio, fuck this hurts so bad". In the car I massage my stomach, and breathe very load, in and out. "I can't drive faster I'm sorry", she sits on the edge of the car chair. "Can you text Ethan?", I muttered.
As soon as we got in the hospital, I started crying, because of the pain and the fact that Ethans isn't here. Giorgia is getting me a wheelchair, while I see a nurse walking towards me. "Hi I'm Amara, I'm the midwife, and I'll help you today", she shakes my hand. "I'm Nina", load breathing I let my body fall into the wheelchair. Amara leads the way and Giorgia pushes me forwards.
"Where is he, where is my boyfriend", I scream out in pain, and I drown in my tears. Giorgia is busy with her phone, calling the band, and my parents I guess. Amara stand next to me, and is giving me painkillers, since I will have to wait much longer til it will be time to push. "They will be here in two hours, hold on". Giorgia takes my hand, signing me that I can squeeze in it. Amara said to breathe through the constractions, but saying and actually doing it is a big difference.

"No no no, I can't, I need him here", my sobs are load, and I don't care if anyone think I'm crazy. It's two hours later, and the pain didn't get less, it only got worse. Giorgia next to me, wipes my forehead with an ice pack and still lets me squeeze in her hand. "Where is she?", in the hall I hear a familiar voice, recognizing it's Ethan's. "Ethan?!", with all my power I scream almost his name, making him find the right room. "Gosh Neen, never scare me so much anymore", he runs in, looking wide-eyed at his girlfriend, dying from pain.

"We will be waiting for you in the hall, I promise", Victoria says, while every one places a kiss on my sweaty forehead, and I still hold Giorgia her hand, until Damiano takes his girlfriend with him. "Thanks Giorgia, for staying", I smile, tensing all my muscles to avoid screaming. I earn a big smile from her, before the door closes, and I'm alone with Ethan.

"Baby, I'm so sorry I'm so late", panicking he stand next to me and I remember the speech my mom gave me about giving birth. Always keep breathing, and let your partner help you. And also how scared the dad always is, since he can do nothing to make the pain less. "Just s-stay", my voice is soft, and my head feels dizzy. The pain in my back and stomach is insane, I can't describe, but it's like every muscle, and every bone breaks. "I'll my love, and I'm not leaving again"

"The childs father I assume?", Amara asks, shaking Ethan his hand, while he nods. "Gosh I'm dying here", I snap, but at who? Amara takes a few weird tests, and I have no idea why. Right now I just need my little girl in my arms. Ethan is sitting on my bed, like a hopeless child, not knowing what to do.

"You are doing perfect, keep going my love", Ethans voice, it makes me concentrate on it, while pushing, as hard as I can. The cold water from the little towel lays on my forehead and Amara keeps saying to push, but I know I have to push. It's been more than an hour now and my baby still isn't here, I just want to hold her in my arm. Amara smiles and Ethan wide-eyed, "do you see something?", Amara nods heavily, "the head".

The fact that she is almost here, gives me more power, and with the last five hardest pushes. I bring my baby on earth, crying and screaming. "O my gosh Nina, you did it", Ethan starts crying, and so do I, hard, together with my baby. She is covered in slime and blood, but that is the last thing I care about, since she is here. The little one Ethan and I have been waiting for for nine fucking months, she is here.

My daughter got washed by Amara and Ethan, she got covered in pink sheets and a blanket. And right now she is laying on her fathers shirtless body. And this view, it just makes me smile. My body is up, and I really need some rest, but that I hear the door, and Victoria, Damiano, Thomas and Giorgia step into the room, seeing their little cousin. Thomas gasps, "she i-is so beautiful". "She looks like her mother", Giorgia says, playing a kiss on my hand. "And like her Father", Victoria says, giving Ethan a hug.

"Please tell me the name", Damiano hands my daughter over back to my arms and I look at Ethan. "You can say", he says, smiling. I give my daughter a kiss on her bare cheek, playing with her little hands. "Camilla Nica Torchio", I said, and everyone gasped.  

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this is the last one for now, sometimes I will post more imagines, and I wil surely not end this book bc I love writing imaginess. prepare for a THOMAS fucking RAGGI book tomorrow!!