*This chapter will go more in depth of River's schizophrenia. I am warning you now.*
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Monophobia; the fear of being alone.
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River's pov;
I think I forgot to take my meds this weekend. I mean it's bad, but it's not bad. I always forget to take my meds anyway and my mom reminds me but I was just too busy this weekend to remember.
Nothing much has happened, just like the usual stuff I guess.
I just wish it wasn't so usual and normal for me though.
I don't want to hear voices, I don't want to see things, I don't want to lose interest in things, I don't want to get angry easily, I don't want to talk so fast that no one can understand me.
I don't know why I can't just be fucking normal.
Because you're a freak.
You're probably wondering why I'm not taking my meds, but I did. They just take for fucking ever to kick in.
You're a freak.
She won't like you.
Everyone thinks your weird.
Groaning, I rub my head. Think about something else, anything else.
"Hey honey, are you okay, you've been in your room all day?" My mom asks, popping her head into my room. I don't look at her or answer her but I'm assuming she actually looks at me because she walks over to my bed to sit by me.
"What's wrong?" She softly asks.
"These stupid meds, mom. Why can't I just be normal?"
"Baby, you are normal."
"Well I don't fucking feel like it." I snap. "I'm sorry I-"
"River it's okay, calm down. I don't care what you have going on. I don't care what you think. I don't care what others think, you are normal to me and that's all that matters." She assures.
She's lying.
You're a freak.
"I don't know why you keep lying to me." I abruptly stand up.
Everyone saying I'm normal and that nothing is wrong with me and that I'm like everyone else is starting to piss me off.
"I'm not lying." She replies softly.
"But you are." I laugh, but not a laugh like it's funny.
"Nothing about me is fucking normal mom, why can't you see that!"
She stands up too, "River, I'm not lying. Just calm down, please?"
"Don't- don't tell me to calm down. It isn't fair that I have to take these stupid meds everyday," I grab the meds off of my desk and hold them up. "and half the time, they don't even fucking work." I throw the bottle at the wall.
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