That Neighbor of Mine (BxB)

Kabanata 14

Kelly

I kept crying last night until I fell asleep. I didn't expect it would be this painful and hard when your bubbles of hope burst in a blink of an eye. I shattered like a broken glass. My heart and all of me.

It's Sunday today and I felt unmotivated. I'm in sorrow. If only I didn't get my hopes up... if only I applied what Samantha and Zeus told me, then I wouldn't got hurt. But a person like me who only got the chance now to associate with the person they like, definitely we can't help but to live in our dream and fantasy. Even if we were warned, our hearts can't seem to work with our mind.

Ngumuso ako habang binabasa ang mga chat sa group chat namin. They are talking about the incoming birthday party of Zeus. Sa next week na pala iyon. Speaking of him, we barely talked right now. I'm still mad at his immaturity and being heartless.

I felt like a hypocrite person when I think of those. Pero hindi ko nalang inabalang isipin pa iyon. Binasa ko isa-isa ang chats nila at puro pang-aasar lang pala kay Zeus. Zeus replying to them coldly like the usual. Tinutukso rin nila si Oddysey kay Zeus and some more teases.

Zeus said that the plan for his birthday is just a simple celebration at their house. With us and some of our acquaintances, friends, and his family. Just simple dinner and drinking at their rooftop. Sounds fun.

His birthday is nearing. I can't stay mad at him until then right? Kung galit pa rin ako sa kanya sa birthday niya, hindi ako sisipot for sure and that would leave a question to our friends and everything will be unveiled.

Should I be civil to him?... I don't think so. His actions is intolerable. I told him to find himself and I hope sooner he will now realized that what he did is not good. That's so not him.

I don't have any plans for today. I'm still feeling so heavy inside remembering what happened yesterday. Am I being impulsive with that?... I guess...not. I think it's the right thing I needed to do especially that I'm starting to be delusional.

I sighed heavily as I get up. I can't tell anyone. Even Sab and Ellise. I don't want anyone to know. I don't want to visit the very reason why I decided to cut ties with him.

In that morning, Daddy called from Singapore to check on me. Si mommy wala kasi may kasong hinahawakan ngayon. Well for me, I'm in home all day, being heartbroken.

Monday came, I'm still affected and I'm not in my usual self. Walang gana akong pumasok. I can't believe this. Dati, me admiring him from afar is enough to motivate me to be in school. Pero ngayong lumayo ako, bakit parang hindi gaya ng dati? Why do I felt like I'm drained?

Nahinto lang ako sa mga naiisip nang kalabitin ako ni Ellise habang kumakain kami ng lunch dito sa labas ng university.

"Why are you so silent? You looked so unusual. What happened?" nakakunot-noo niyang tanong.

Agad naman akong napaayos ng upo at umiling. "Uh-h, wala naman," sagot ko at ngumiti.

Her brows just furrowed more and her eyes watched me carefully like a cat. Tila tinitimbang ang ekspresyon ko.

Didn't I sound convincing?

I pouted and glare at her to show that she's blabbering nonsense. But I can't fool her. We've been close ever since so she know me so well.

She only rolled her eyes and shot here right brow up.

"We'll talk later."

I sighed.

Kahit ayaw ko mang ipalaam sa iba, alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako matatahimik hangga't hindi ko ito mailalabas. Keeping this to myself will just drown me.