That Neighbor of Mine (BxB)

Kabanata 19

Kelly

My mind was pre-occupied with a lot of things as I went in the bathroom to take a shower. First was about what Daryl said. Did Zeus really do that? He can't possibly... do that. He seems genuine and has good intentions towards me.

Second was about earlier. His jealousy obviously. Kailangan niyang kontrolin ang selos niya dahil nakakasakit ang mga salita niya. It really offended me legit. He's such an ass and I know that's he had always been that way.

Hindi siya magiging Zeus kung hindi siya isang asshole. And unfortunately... I like him. I'm so screwed and can't do anything. I like a walking red flag damn it.

Kahit anong pilit kong iwaglit lahat ng iniisip ngayon, hindi ko magawa. My thoughts always went back to what Daryl had said earlier. And the thought is making me gone mad. My chest ache a bit especially when I remember their position earlier, him and Oddysey.

Hinilamos ko ang aking kamay sa aking mukha. I'm stressing myself again because of him. Because of him! It's always been him! Damn him!

Hindi ko masabi na hindi niya kayang gawin ang sinabi ni Daryl kanina kasi unang-una alam ko sa sarili kong isang malaking gago si Zeus. Realistically speaking. Pangalawa, hindi ko alam kung anong kaya niyang gawin. I don't have any slightest idea what he's capable of doing something.

But I know one thing, he's the one who will crush me.

It took me half an hour inside the bathroom before I decided to come out. Ngunit muntik na akong mapatalon sa gulat sa nasaksihan. Zeus was sitting on my bed with his arms on his behind supporting his weight and his legs apart.

Nagtama ang tingin namin at napalunok ako sa intensidad nito. I suddenly felt conscious too because my upper body is exposed. His hooded dark eyes looked at me straight in my eyes, apologetic and weary while mine was literally blank. His eyes drifted to my body for a second and back to my eyes quickly. Nakita ko siyang napalunok at bahagyang nag-iwas ng tingin. Napalunok din ako at ramdam na uminit ang pisngi kasabay ang malakas na kabog ng puso.

But even if his effects on me was so intense, it didn't lessen my anger for him. I stared at him blankly for couple of seconds before I left him ignored to dress up. Ngayong nakita ko siya, ang mga emosyon na aking nararamdaman ay tumindi. Galit, lungkot, at awa sa sarili.

I changed into a simple plain white shirt and sweatshort below. And after, I blow dried my hair. It took me another ten minutes inside my walk-in closet to dress up because I still put on my skin care routine. At sa mga oras na iyon, hindi mawala sa isipan ko ang mga gustong sabihin sa kanya ngayon.

Gusto ko na talaga siyang pagsabihan. Nasa isipan ko na ang mga salita na gusto kong sabihin sa kanya ngunit nang lumabas na ako at nakita siyang nasa harapan ng shelf ko kung nasaan nandoon din ang stuff toy na ibinigay ni France, natigilan ako.

He was holding it and looking at it viciously. His thick brows furrowed with his dark eyes looking deadly. Like the innocent stuff toy did something bad to him. Napadako naman ang tingin ko sa panga niyang umiigting... and his lips press in thin line.

Looking at his state right now, I don't think I have the strength at all to equal his anger. I know that it will always never be good to equal ones anger. It won't do any good at sa pagkakataon na ito, alam kong hindi ko dapat pantayan ang galit niya.

I took a deep breath and started walking towards him. Bakit ang rupok ko pagdating sa kanya? I need to fucking calm him down so we won't end up shouting at each other.

As I near him, I felt scared a bit but I still manage to walked towards him. I smell his perfume when we are so close. At kahit ramdam na niya ang presensya ko, hindi man lang niya ako nilingon. My heart started to raced because I know any moment, he'll snap out.