He Played Me | Jikook

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Jimin's pov

A month passed, am I coping? Well hell no if that's what you guys wanna know. I have been feeling sad always, always and always and it brings back those memories in high school, the depression I had- the thing that i hate so much.

But I think i am drowning into it slowly by slowly.

Jungook.

I have been trying to call him, with different numbers but he was not answering my calls. I want to see him so badly and I had been thinking of maybe going to his tattoo shop but then what if things go bad?

Everything feels like its a dream. I still cannot belive that me and him are done. The fact that he chose his ex over me....it broke me. It also damaged the part of me because whenever I think about it, I harm myself and which is what i hate.

I promised Yoongi that I will never harm myself again, but here I am with over 100 of bruises over my body. Yoongi went on a vacation with his girlfriend so I am left alone.

I am 100% sure that if he was here , I wouldn't even get a chance to hold a knife or a razor because he will be there looking after me.

But does anyone understand the pain I am in? How heartbreaking I am? I am trying so hard to not think about him but every single mintue he is always in my mind.

That man has my heart, my heart is wrapped around his hand and he broke it. Broke it into pieces but I still have strong feelings towards him, those feelings that I don't think they will ever fade away.

I wipe the strained tears over my cheeks and stand up , wearing my shoes and take the car keys . Well, I have now decided that I will go at Jungook's tattoo shop, just to try my luck and get a little bit of close.

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Author's pov

" Okay Soobin, I think we are done now" Jungook say , takin his black gloves off. He just finished doing a tattoo to his customer.

" Wow..... Damn my wife is really going to love this" Jungook raise his eyebrow at the young male.

" Wife? You married?" Let's just say, Jungook is shocked . Soobin looks very younger, maybe he might be 18 or 19.

" Yes. Crazy right ? I am really into old women, and oh- not that I am being fuckboy or anything no I am not. I really love the one I have now" Jungook blink his eyes but smiled widely while nodding.

" Well, I have to go so what you have to keep in mind is that next week i am coming back" he say giving Jungook a handshake.

" I will " he say watching the male walk out. He sigh chuckling at what Soobin just told him. He walk out of the room, ruffling his hair but he stopped when he saw a thin person walking in the shop with a hoodie , falling over his body.

He keen his eyes walking to him, and as soon as the person take the hat hoodie off made Jungook's heart drop immediately , his eyes already filled with tears that are threatening to come out- but he blank them away and gulped the burning lump on his throat.

" Hu- I mean Jungook " Jimin say in a soft but there is also cracking in his voice. He clear his throat forcing a smile on his face since Jungook is looking at him.

God that intimidating gaze.  Jimin thought.

" H-how have yo-you be-been?" He ask and hoped that his cracking will go away but still it was there.

" Good" Jungook say rubbing his hands together,his jaw keep clenching.

Jimin can't help but stare at how Jungook lost weight. His muscles are still there but this is not the Jungook he knows. His little chubby cheeks are gone, but looks handsome as always but there is change there and Jimin feels like he is about to cry.

Jungook looks like he is not getting enough sleep. He look like he has been tortured.

Jungook notice how Jimin is staring at him with tears in his eyes. He is still in shock seeing Jimin's presence , mostly he is more shocked at how Jimin changed. The younger is no longer that thick but a thin male. His body looks tiny in that hoodie.

He can't get rid of the heart ache that he is feeling knowing very well that he is the cause of all these.

" I know that I am the last person you want to see , but I can't help myself. " Jimin start.

" Can we go and sit down?" Jungook nod which surprised himself for agreeing like that , leading them to a small balcony, there were two chairs and small table in between. They both sat down in silence not looking at each other. Jimin finally looked up and see how Jungook is fiddling with his shaking fingers.

His fingers are itching to slap me,i know. I am so annoying.  He thought.

" Sadness is what i have been feeling since you dumped me. Anger, numbness- I am feeling lot of emotions that I can't explain. Always- I am asking myself, am I in a nightmare? But then soon I realize that this is real. You are not in a nightmare Jimin, you have been dumped. " Jungook bit his lower staring at his shoes.

" I am drowning Jungook " Jungook hate the sting in his heart hearing Jimin call him by his name.

" I- I am drowning really ba-bad. And I don't think that there is anyone to help me except you" Jimin doesn't care about the fat tears falling on his cheek.

His cold small hands grabbed Jungook's hands and felt how cold they were also. This took Jungook by surprised . He lift his face, his eyes filled with tears and tighten the grip on Jimin's hand so tight, like he is scared to let him go.

" H-hu-hun....we-we can tr-try ag-agian" Jimin say in a whisper, griping on Jungook's hands.

Jungook open his mouth but it only trembled, he doesn't know what to say honestly. He is thinking too much that he can't form any words at all.

He doesn't realize how he is gripping Jimin's hand.

" please Ju-jungook. We both know how madly we love each other. The promises-"

" Ji-Ji-Jimi-"

" Those good times we both shared mean a lot you know that. Jungook please, I beg you with all my heart give me another chance " he say as he cry, already kneeling on the ground his hands still gripping Jungook's hands.

" Jimin! No, no stand up" Jungook say as he look around to see if there is anyone watching them but there was none. He pulled Jimin up, and let go his hands quickly.

" Ju-"

" Please Jimin. You have to leave " he say  forcing the words out. His heart shattering seeing Jimin's hurtful facial expression.

" Hu-hun! Jungook - Taehyung is nothing-"

" Hey! Hey! Don't you dare talk about Taehyung. D-d-dont" he say walking pass Jimin but close his eyes tightly when he feel Jimin holding his wrist.

" Leave my hand"

" Jungo-"

" I. Said. Leave. My. Hand" he repeated with a stern voice.

" Wh-"

" I SAID FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" He take his hand back, his dark teary eyes glare at Jimin who is taken back hyung Jungook's spat.

" CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND WHEN I SAY LEAVE ME- ME ALONE!!! JUST FUCKING GO PARK JI-JIMIN!!!" Jimin cried shaking his head trying to hold Jungook's hand but the older was prying his small hand so harshly slapping them.

" Dont don't do this. You love-"

" Stop talking shit and get the fuck out of here!! You are wrong if you thought i still love you because I only love one person. " He spat harshly walking away from Jimin leaving him crying so badly  .

" Ju-Jungook?" He whispered lowly looking down on the floor, and walk to the glass door and look back.

" I- I- I lo-love you" he say lastly and walk out the shop, walking slowly at his car .

Hey.
Boring? I am sorry y'all