He Played Me | Jikook

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Jungook clench his jaw tight and tried so hard not let this stupid tears to fall but he failed. The fat tears flow on his cheek while he is trying to contain his sobs but also failed.

He still cannot belive that he lied to Namjoon and Dr Smith. He promised to never get emotional quickly . Argh fuck them , they can never understand his emotions, and how they react so quickly by seeing Jimin .

" Jungook?" He open his eyes and got quite listening to Jimin's heels clinking on the floor slowly. He tighten his hands on the railing and never turn around because he knows he can even become more worse with the sobs.

" Its okay, its not your fault. You don't have to say sorry " His heart racing, face burning as he feel Jimin getting closer to him and his breath hitched when Jimin stand beside him , also watching the view- but Jungook was staring at the view blankly. .

With quick actions, he look at Jimin with the corner of his eyes to see him looking at the lights-

" You remember when we were here? Enjoying the perfect view?" Jimin say with a nevours smile turning to him. And this time Jungook didn't tear his eyes off but looked a him straight.

Jungook's eyes got even more teary seeing those blue pretty eyes he has been longing to see with his life. Those soft eyes Jimin is giving him- but why? He shouldn't be nice to him. He close his eyes as he feel the lump on his throat and release a shaky breath.

Jimin also look at his hands to see them shaking and also Jungook's hands shaking- with his knuckles white with the grip he is holding the railing. Jimin lift his hand and slowly brought it on top of Jungook.

Oh- he doenst know, have any idea what he just did to Jungook. His heart thrusting so fast , feeling butterflies, his skin getting goosebumps, hand- his hand urging to grip on Jimin's small soft cold one.

He cursed under his breath feeling a tight grip Jimin is doing on his large hand.

" I.... I know you are thinking that maybe I am here to spat at you-" Jungook look at him with tears slipping out.

" Well I am not. I am not here to fight " Jimin say shaking his head staring at Jungook's pretty doe eyes softly. Jungook press his lips in a thin line and had a courage to hold Jimin's hand. They both felt the spark when their hands held each other tight.

Jimin look at the hands and back at Jungook with teary eyes.

" I... I am sorry Hun." Jungook cry softly still not breaking the eye contact. Hun, the word he loved so much.

" I am sorry for what I said a-at t-the hospital. I- I never wanted t-to say th-that Jungook. I..... i- I was angry, very angry that I couldn't control myself at-at that ti-t-time. I- I didn't want to be th-that rude- and selfish - No, I didn't want to Hu-Hun" Jungook couldn't take it anymore. He close their distance and wrap his arms around Jimin's small frame. He bend down  little to rest his chin on Jimin's hair crying.

Jimin wrapped his arms around his torso hugging it tight and cry on his chest. The two were consoling each other in the peaceful warm embrace and it shows how they both wanted to hold each other after so long.

For the first time in few months, they both felt at peace and harmony. They missed each other and at this moment they aren't trying to hide it at all.

After 15 minutes of crying-

" You don't  have to be nice to me Jimin. I don't deserve the kindness- and especially from you. The person I have hurt so much- you should treat me very bad, an-and slap- slap me till I can-cannot feel my cheeks. Y-You were rig-right , I should have been stabbed many times and died" Jimin cried even more and shake his head , while Jungook nod on his head.

" Yes b-baby you were right. You were so ri-right. I do-dont want to live here in this earth, because it hurts me so much that it disgust you knowing that I am here in earth-"

" No!! No! Stop Hun! Stop!" Jimin say and look up to him . Jungook look down and rest his forehead on Jimin's with both eyes shut. His heart was clenching very bad hearing Jungook

" I- I am sorry baby, hurting you was the last thing in my-ny mind - Taehyung's comeback shocked me and I wasn't thinking straight- I re-really don't deserve you Jim-Jimin, but I want to be wit-with you b-but I know its not possible. " He say through his sobs and his heart aching more hearing Jimin cry

" No, do-dont say that!" Jimin say hitting his biceps with his two hands.

" I- I need to do it, even if it hurts m-me knowing that ther-there will be someone kissing yo-you- , holding you like th-this- Fuck, your cuddles- i just need to be aware ser-seriously that you will never come back" The words hurt him but he need to just say them- to his lover.

" Hun-"

" I lo-love you Jimin, so much i can't even explain it. An-And I want you to promise me th-that you will-will never allow any monster to-to break you-your precious heart juts like the dick i am. I -"

Slap!

" Stop! No!!! I want you!!! I want you, only you!!! Stop talking like, like that Hun!!! You are not going anywhere!! Noo!!" Jimin shouted looking at him with dark eyes.

" J-" he didn't have a second to atleast process what  happened- but felt soft thick lips on his. He moaned loudly that he is sure the guests did hear him. He keep moaning in the kiss while crying with Jimin . He kiss him back, placing his large hands on his cheeks- his hands almost covering Jimin's small face and deepen the kiss.

The kiss was slow  , passionate, but so deep, allowing each other's tongues to explore their mouth, exploring every inch.

Jimin whine loudly . God, he has missed kissing this thin yet delicious lips of his Hun. The softness - God it was so enough to make everything in him spark .

6 mintues of kissing Jungook pulled away breathing heavily and shut his eyes.

" This time- do not slap me but kill me. I- I am sorry for taking an advantage-"

" Enough Hun!! " he flinch and open his eyes to see Jimin staring deeply in his eyes.

" Everything you are say-saying- hurts me and I dont want to hear it ever again. I forgave you, I did. I don't want to see myself with someone but only you. Yes you did mess up but I do understand that you weren't doing it intentionally. I tried to hate you Jungook, I tried so hard and even went on a date but that didn't help anything. My anger towards you was just too much that I could handle it when I see you"

" Again the words i said to you, I didn't mean them Hun. But as time goes on I realized that i can never hate you . That's a big fact , I can't hate you. I love you so much Jeon Jungook. " Jungook stared at him, his eyes shiny full of adoration , so much love and lust.

" Bu-But I can understand if you don't want to try it out again. I also don't deserve you. I wa-hmm" Jungook press his lips on his soft one, leaving a long peck and pull away.

" Just imagine, imagine if I don't give this a chance, then I can say I am bewitched " He smile hearing Jimin giggle.

" Are you sure baby? I- I want you to be sure . If someone convinced yo-"

" no one did but I thought about this for a while hun. I- I can't take it anymore. " Jungook cried . Jimin pull him in a hug and made both of them sit on the bench. Both of them crying silently, hugging each other tight, really afraid to let each other. All they want is to just stick like this, forever and ever.

How.... how is it? I am just nervous hahaha.