Dream smp age regression one-shots

Vent

TW-
Homophobia, nightmares, dysphoria, mentions of being overwhelmed.

This is different from the other ones I've written but I need to vent, please listen to the trigger warnings it's okay if you can't read this I'll give u a summary of you need one!

So I'm autistic, and lgbt. With that my mum seems to think that I can't be lgbt because I'm autistic, I've tried coming out to her before but it gets me nowhere but homophobia.
What should I do?
I use at the moment, they/he/it pronouns, and identify as genderqueer.
My mum doesn't know that.
I'm also pansexual.
My mum doesn't know that either.
We go into shops where I get overwhelmed and when I do she doesn't handle it well she gets annoyed because she doesn't know how to help?
Normally I don't like touch she doesn't always handle that well. She gets upset making it worse on me!

Recently the lack of sleep has come back and the nightmares have to, meaning late night writing and editing.
I'm in a burnout and feeling extremely dysphoric. Binding for to long (I don't use a safe method)
And been more paranoid than normal.
So if I don't update for a few days that's why, but I want to put forward a story idea.

Recently it's been my goal to publish a book in 2 years, one about finding yourself!
I'm still finding myself out, so maybe we can all help each other.

Each part will be another day.
We'll be learning from a person called Max as they figure themselves out (the goal for the end of the book)

This I want to get published, to help people like me!
So, would you all read it?

And name suggestions are being requested!
If they could be gendernaultral or more boy sounding it would be great!
*cries in name crisis and identity crisis*

-The author you all know.