Dream smp age regression one-shots

Insecurities part 2

Little - Tommy
Caregiver - Eret
Information -
Eret and Tommy talk
Trigger warning(s) -
Gender dysphoria, crying, rib pain, pain, intrusive thoughts, transphobia, dissociation(?), black outs.
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Tommy was there again. In front of the mirror. He wasn't meant to be binding. Eret had told him not to, she knew he'd probably damaged a rib. But, Tommy had to.
Tommy knew the risk he was taking with a sports top over his binder, it made his ribs sting with every breath he had, tears would prickle in his eyes if he moved to fast. He wasn't even sure the binding was the right size for him.
Tommy stood sideways, looking at himself in the mirror.
Not flat enough. Not masculine enough. The words spread around his mind, getting comfortable in it.

He thought back to when he came out to his mother, tears welling in his eyes. He told his mother, that when he was called a girl, he couldn't handle it, how it felt like his heart was being ripped out of his chest. (Me to Tommy, me to, not my coming out story, no. Definitely not.) But she remained calm. Told him no. Looked her son dead in the eyes and proceeded to say words he would never forget. Your haircut is to feminine. His mind hissed the words. He'd been so proud of his haircut, he felt masculine with it. His mother told him otherwise.

A knock at the door startled Tommy from his mind, the buzzing in his ears retreating slightly. He felt himself almost floating, far away from his body. He didn't like it.
"Toms? You okay?" Erets concered voice rang out in the room, and tears pricked in his eyes as Tommy turned far to fast.
"Y-yeah! I'm okay!" He wasn't. His voice was strained. Thick with emotion. He couldn't think. His mind had turned on him again. And he felt further and further away.
He blinked and Eret was hugging him.
Tommy had never cried so much.
His ribs stung. Screaming at him, that he had messed up there.
"Tommy. I'm going into the hallway, please take your binder off and leave it on my desk." Eret instructed calmly. Tommy just nodded, Eret left, Tommy blinked and once again he was in a different spot, he was curled at Erets side, pacifier in, and was falling asleep. He didn't fight the sleep of course, he just let it happen.
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Part of this is my actual attempt at coming out story (it clearly went to well). And part of it is what's been happening to me lately. I'll release something happier later I swear.
Date of publishing - Sunday May 29 2022
Time of publishing - 18:31
Word count - 453