Yours always, Pre'asia

αт уσυя вєѕт (уσυ αяє ℓσνє∂)

ωнєи ι fєєℓ ωнαt ι fєєℓ

ѕσмєtιмєѕ ιt'ѕ нαя∂ tσ tєℓℓ уσυ ѕσ

уσυ мαу иσt вє ιи tнє мσσ∂ tσ ℓєαяи ωнαt уσυ tнιик уσυ киσω

Tнєяє αяє tιмєѕ ωнєи ι fιи∂

уσυ ωαиt tσ кєєρ уσυяѕєℓf fяσм мє

ωнєи ι ∂σи't нανє tнє ѕtяєиgtн; ι'м ʝυѕt α мιяяσя σf ωнαt ι ѕєє

вυt αt уσυя вєѕt уσυ αяє ℓσνє

уσυ'яє α ρσѕιtινє мσtιναtιиg fσя¢є ωιtнιи му ℓιfє

ѕнσυℓ∂ уσυ єνєя fєєℓ tнє иєє∂ tσ ωσи∂єя ωну

ℓєt мє киσω, ℓєt мє киσω. .

.ρяє'αѕια

March 16,2013

It's been 2 weeks and NO I have not apologized to Chrestano I have not contacted and whenever he sees me he immediately leaves the area and goes to another room with no emotion on his face. I won't lie it does hurt my feelings a little but I'm a person with a little to much pride for reasoning. I miss him a lot and I know he misses me because before he leaves he always looks at me in my eyes before giving a disappointed look. Any damn way I had to wake Zaniyah up this morning and she is now crying with a red face because yes she is tired. I had to though me and Arianna were going shopping and stuff today. I really want to be less restricted when it came to my clothes because well...I still don't own a damn dress. But it's not just that I want to improve not downgrade and this is not just a appearance sitch it was also more of a inside thing I mean I should take some things Chrestano said into consideration....Right.

I got Za dressed in a cute rabbit sweater some cargo shorts and her little Timberlands. On the very bottom of her suitcase she had a IPad that I just discovered yesterday so I had her sit on the couch and play games while I got myself dressed.I put on my Superman crop top a pair of floral shorts and some fresh kicks that my mom sent me yesterday for doing a good job watching Za. Lastly I slid my freezing cold gold chains around my neck. I threw my curly hair into a top bun and headed out the door just in time to see Arianna pull into my driveway.

I grabbed Za's hand as she looked at my with her cranky face I mean she's only 2 so yea I guess I get it. I sent her a smile and she started pouting while going to the backseat of the car. I giggled a little bit before going to the front seat dapping up Arianna before she pulled out and headed towards the mall. Za started to slump in the backseat before we knew it she was knocked out drooling and all. Arianna goofily laughed as we admired her. "So have you talked to Chres lately?" Arianna asked with her eyebrow raised high. I sadly shook my head fiddling with my fingertips a bit.

She shot me a disappointed look and shook her head. Even she agreed that I was being petty....Hell even I agreed. I looked down in guilt I mean I never ever cry but today...I did. I felt the tear trickle down my cheeks. I'm crying over a boy was my first reaction but then I felt my subconscious whisper. "But he's not just any boy or you wouldn't be crying" And she was right. Arianna looked at me In shock she couldn't believe. Of all the years that she's known me I never cried a tear but today I looked broken the second she mentioned his name. Right now I didn't give a shit about "Feeling like a girl."

I wiped my face hardly causing red marks to appear on my cheeks. Arianna was in complete awe we've know each other for all our lives and the fact that I could cry over just the mention on his name was completely new to her. "I'm sorry Pre'asia I ain't mean to make you cry." She said with head hung low with an apologetic look. I shrugged "It's okay I just don't like that subject right now I mean its touchy right ion wanna talk about it." I said sadly looking out the car window as we pulled into the mall. She sent me an evil smile and I immediately got playful and covered my face.