Love which is Blooming in a Brothel(Ongoing)

6. A Thin Line!

11/22/2021

Do good and in return only good things will be rewarded to you. BUT! is it true always?

15th April, 1923

Night 10:43 PM

Bondita was in her room, she was yelping in the pain. Rasiya who was taking care of her had to leave her there to bear that soreness, alone. Rasiya who worships her job had no choice other then leaving suffering Bondita there.

Here in RC mansion, Anirudh who's tears hasn't dried since yesterday morning's dreadful incident was looking after his wife, who is still unconscious and bleeding. He fed her medicines stirring in water, took care of her soaking pads, massaged her feet and hands to provide her extra needed warmth.

When he was massaging her, she slowly opened her eyes, weakness of her body was evident in her fevered eyes. She mourned for their child in his embrace, he too cried but inaudibly. After all He was a Man, he was not allowed to behave broken in front of her, in front of anyone. is this not  what society teaches a man, expects from a MAN.

Same thing happened when he let Bondita go to her Mom's place no, he himself sent her away from him for her unacceptable deeds. Then, why was he crying, why his heart panged when he himself pushed her away from him. He should have not cried because he himself approved she was guilty, she must be punished. That only 8 year girl was proven culprit, an unforgivable criminal in front of whole society, in his own eyes too so, she must get her share of punishment like any other adult criminal. And the punishment was he didn't wish to see her face even when she was leaving, she was touching his feet considering him god, she respected him so much that she darkened the room to accept his decision to not even glance at her innocent teary eyed face. Being a BARRISTER he didn't give her a chance to prove herself, instead of listening her POV and trying to understand her, he snatched that COCO-PHONE from her tiny hands and threw it away breaking it, breaking her lil heart. 

Why he became deaf, why he behaved he couldn't bear her, was it society's pressure or His so-called love for his love-bird, beauty-queen who is now visionless beauty-queen, miss-London-dreamer came in between His pious relationship with his first accidental small doll like wifey whom he consider his responsibility only, but he was god for her and once made an skillful attempt to apply Haldi on his bleeding elbow. 

Why didn't he believed his unannounced judgment prompted by his own delicate sensibility, his honest instincts for her. This is not, how the responsibilities are handled Mr. London returned fitoori Barrister Babu. If you couldn't understood an 8 year old's emotions, her selfless deeds, her constant sobs do you think, you would be able to understand your own infant's needs, what he needs- He can't express it, you learn it all gradually, it takes time. You must have given thought about it while not listening to her pleadings and heart wrenching cry but indeed everyone has to pay for their deeds, here in this whole life. Karma hits everyone on time, sometimes in most heart wrenching ways accord to their misdeeds.

Here, Bondita who has entered in another phase of her life, which is important and very beautiful for every women but needed extra pampering and care was sobbing sitting on the bed and was wishing if she was in any of her home, if she was in Devipur, her Mother would have pampered her, her love would have been enough to shed her pain but Alas! here she was. ALL-ALONE.

For a sec her EX-Patibabu's image too fleshed in her memory. "How he took care of her during her bed wetting days, how he used to feed her Roshogullas." 

She even smiled subtly reminiscing their cute Nok-jhok, She was craving for Roshogullas that time too but no one was there to feed her that, take care of her, no one around was bothered about how was she feeling?, was she even able to bear that extreme cramps and soreness in her body.

She needed that love that mollycoddle that either her mother could give her or might be her extra caring Ex-Patibabu.

She hugged her abdomen tight and slept teary eyed in sometime. She had no other choice then that.

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Here Anirudh who was trying to console his wife without words, his hand moments too were not supporting him. His vocal folds have stopped functioning, that time he chose the silence and this time it became his choice in utter melancholic UNIQUE way, not being able to speak even a single word.

"Anirudh, why are you crying? don't cry." Saudamini showed some courage because she was in her love's embrace, She lost her biggest blessing from the god yet didn't consider herself that unfortunate because her greatest benison was with her, yes Her Anirudh was there with her who loves her to the moon and back.

He clenched his clutch tight on her, on her statement and sobbed.

"Tum toh aise ro rahe ho jaise hum phir se Ma-baba nahi ban sakte.", She wiped his tears with her fragile fingers, she tried to console him while she herself was smashed. "Tum hi kahte ho na jab tak hum sath hai, dukh ki koi vajah honi hi nahi chaiye."

a lil flashback.

When the doctor arrived in next 10 mins after that appalling incident, everyone except Anirudh took a temporary aidue. he had managed the things maturely even in that heart shattering condition the she didn't go to fully unconscious state.

Because she was eight month pregnant, their baby was developed fully, if doctor was immediately available she could have given birth to a baby who was alive but her deeds may be their deeds snatched that happiness from them. 

Saudamini couldn't bear that excessive bone-crunching pain of delivering baby and lost her consciousness, May be she was still lucky enough that she couldn't see her newborn infant who has stopped breathing in her womb, in the most safest place for any Foetus itself.

Anirudh-Mini were the most unfortunate couple on the earth because, they haven't heard their 1st child soft cooing 'MaMa-Ba' yet who is already about 14 months old and have lost their second child and last child as well they dreamt to raise together. 

Anirudh who held his dead child in his arms, close to his heart hadn't left with any courage to even breath or blink. he was dead frozen, wasn't it the greatest suffering a father can feel, 'His own dead child in his embrace' his heart had stopped beating and what he could only do at the moment was subconsciously wish to Dugga ma to make his breathing stop as well. 

About 2 years ago he didn't dare cross that thin line between his instincts and proofs and witness presented to him for that young innocent girl and now he was left with no option then accepting his ill-fated destiny because that innocent soul was suffering in the hell since last 2 years, alone.

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Note: I believe the readers who are continuing to read the story are really mature ones and will take the occurrence of events maturely. I will not put any forth note in upcoming chapters so thought to clear it here only.